he's not just a friend (lashton fanfic au)

chapter 13

I don't know where this story is going I'm gonna cry

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Ashton

It was around 6 P.M. which was about 10 hours of sleep for Luke. I went upstairs to wake him up and I heard him talking. I silently approached the door and placed my ear on it. I pushed it open on accident and red took over my face in embarrassment.

"Ashton were you eavesdropping?" he questioned.

I slowly nodded, "I heard you talking to yourself and I figured I would listen to you."

He walked over and nudged me, "What did you hear babe?" He slumped his arm around me.

"Nothing actually," i sighed.

He turned around so he was facing me. Tears rimmed his eyes. He looked me dead in the eye and held me in a strong embrace.

"Ashton, do you know why I was in the halls the day I found you?" a few tears expelled from his eyes.

"No, why Luke?" I became more concerned.

"Well, I was being insulted by my so called "friends," and they started like, abusing me in a way. On occasion physically but mostly verbally. And I couldn't take it so I was going to go to the bathroom to take my mind off of things," his face grew pale.

My mind went blank. I didn't know what to say. I then heard his voice ring through my ears.

"You don't know the entire story Ashton," (A/N this next part may be triggering so warning) I nodded, "I was going to go to the bathroom because, I brought my blade to school that day, and I was going to cut at least once, then either flush it, or do it over and over. Then I found you. I have liked you for maybe 3 years. But I was known as the staight guy. So I couldn't tell you. I'm sorry."

My eyes began to water as I looked into his eyes. His eyelids drooped slightly. I held him close to me and told him it was okay. That he would be okay. He fell asleep into my arms with dried tears on his face. I kissed his forehead gently and held him closer.

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The next morning, I realized how dark it was outside. I saw an array of clouds entering the sky. I felt a breeze fly through the window. The pressure on me was removed. Luke had turned his body away from me. He began to fidget around and he began to weep. I knew this was another nightmare he had been having. I let it go because for a while now they would only last a few minutes.

I put the world away for a period of time. I put it away when Luke could be rolling off the bed and sweating. Maybe even worse. I just had to think about what he might have done to himself if he didn't find me. The thought of it all made my eyes rim with tears. I can't imagine that Luke would do this to himself. He's so perfect. He makes me so happy. He seems so happy all the time.

His eyes slowly opened up, "Ashton? Are you okay?"

I suddenly realized that I was crying. The tears were flowing uncontrollably. I couldn't help it. If he did do it to himself would he have severed a vein? Would he have wanted to end it all? Was he that broken? I wiped the tears off of my face and turned to Luke, who was still waiting for me to answer him. 

"I'm just thinking Luke. I'm okay," I lied through my teeth.

"Okay, whatever you say," he turned back around and went back to sleep. His snores and my quiet sobs filled the room. I needed to get over this. He's probably okay now, I mean he has me at least. He wouldn't do it again would he? I decided to go make breakfast to you know, take my mind off of things.

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When I got downstairs, I didn't feel as hungry anymore so I just made a cup of coffee. 

I figured that i wouldn't actually make breakfast until Luke was up, all sleepy and cute. That was until i heard a series of knocks at the door. Calum and Michael were standing in the doorway and their eyes were puffy as if they were crying for a few hours. 

"Guys, are you okay?" I asked as they walked to the couch.

"Well, Luke can't stay here anymore," Calum spoke.

"Wait, what?" I asked, rushing over to them.

"H-His family is moving to America. He doesn't know it, we were planning on telling you both at the same time. I'm sorry Ash," Michael's tears were flowing.

I choked and I  felt as if I couldn't breathe. I saw Luke rush down the stairs and just as his feet touched the tile, he hugged me.

"Ashton, I'm so sorry. I just- I just didn't know. My mom actually just texted me," his tears soaked into my shoulder. I couldn't even cry anymore. I've run out of tears. I'm just speechless, and I couldn't push out any tears. 

"It's okay Luke.. You don't have to apologize," those words scraped my throat as they came out of my mouth.

"I wanna stay with you Ashton," he said. His words burned through my heart. He would leave his family, for me.

"No, Luke, you can't. They're your family. You can always visit?" I asked with pleading eyes.

"But Ashton-" I cut him off.

"No buts. You can't leave your family. I'm not as important okay?" he looked at the ground and walked away from me to sit on the couch.

"I just don't know what to do," he began to cry again.

"We'll figure it out," I replied.

"Together," Calum joined in.

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WOW I'M MEAN.

I'm truly sorry for taking three years to update. I'm very unreliable. Oops. I love you okay !!! You're all cool and pls don't hate me for taking forever ily ily ily ily. <3

-Ariana xx