She's not afraid

15. You are my heaven

*Niall's P.O.V*

Jessie left me to sit here alone in our flat. Alone, bored, sad that she's gone. I'm always depressed when she's gone. I just miss her so much. I can't take it. I need someone here with me to take my mind off of my beautiful girlfrienddddd....oops I mean "soon to be girlfriend". I really need to ask her out soon.

I called Louis and he picked up on the 2nd ring.

*ring*...*ring*

"Hello?" I heard Louis voice speak.

"Hey Lou, I was wondering if you wanted to come over. I'm bored without..."

He cut me off.

"Eleanor" Louis said.

"I'm bored without Eleanor" Louis said, with sadness in his voice.

"I miss Jessie" I said. I sounded broken.

"Diddo" Louis said. Referring to El.

We are pathetic. About to cry because the ones we love left only an hour ago.

"Come keep me company Jessie ;)" I told Louis with a joking tone in my voice.

"I'll be right over Eleanor ;)" Louis said with a laugh. We're really that desperate to act like Louis Is Jessie and that I'm Eleanor? Yup. Oh well, I need the company

***

I heard a knock on my door. I walked over to the door and opened it to a smiling Louis.

"ELEANOR!!" Louis yelled before engulfing me in a hug.

"JESSIE!!" I copied and we both started laughing. Louis walked inside and then Liam walked from behind him.

"DANI!!" Liam said and hugged me.

"Oh Liam, I love you baby. I miss you so much;)" I said to Liam in a high pitched, girls voice. He laughed and walked into my flat. Behind him was Harry.

"Hello mate" Harry said as he

gave me a bro hug.

"Hey" i replied. Behind Harry was Zayn....wow.

"Niall" Zayn said with a head nod.

"Zayn" I replied with a head nod. He walked passed me and in to my flat.

I followed behind him and saw Louis, Liam, And Harry sitting on the couch. They were turning on the XBox and was getting ready to play Black Ops 2.

"Niall, can I talk to you?" Zayn said from behind me.

"Fine" I said and followed him into another room.

"What do you want Zayn? Why are you here?!" My voice raised and it frightened him just a little. He ignored my questions and started ranting.

"Niall look, I know that you love Jessie. It's obvious by the way you look into her eyes. I can tell you care about her"

I tired to speak but Zayn kept talking.

"I'm so so so so sorry for cheating on Jessie. I know I should be telling her this, and I will. The guilt has been eating me up for the last 3 weeks. I can't look at anything without thinking of Jessie. I'm an ass for doing what I did. I have done so many bad things to all of you and I am so sorry. That was my BESTFRIEND, my lover. But I lost her. It hurts to admit it, but I am truly thankful that she has you and that you saved her. She relies on you with all her heart and I know that you would never hurt her. Ever. I lost her forever. I will always love her but atleast I know that she's with someone I can trust. Niall...I miss you. I miss our friendship. You were my best mate. We would do everything together and there would be no drama or pain what's so ever. I miss that. I'm begging you..with all my heart, PLEASE forgive me. Please let me be your guys friend again. None of the boys even talk to me anymore. Liam made me come here so fans and the press wouldn't think that we weren't friends anymore. I miss hanging out with all of you. I miss my brothers... Liam doesn't even look at me anymore. Harry looks at me with disgust and hatred. Louis ignores me and you absolutely hate me. And Jessie....oh my sweet Jessie"

Zayn said with tears streaming down his face. I had a shocked expression on my face.

"My oh so sweet, beautiful, perfect Jessie won't even talk to me yet alone look at me. She won't say one word to me. She hates me. And whenever I try to talk to her she ignores me. Whenever I touch her, she backs away in fear. I can see it in her eyes. It breaks my heart every time. I know the exact moment I lost her forever...it wasn't when I cheated on her or left for the X Factor. It was when I hit you. That night when I thought you were kidnapping Jessie..I punched you with all my mite. I saw her eyes widen in shock and hate and worry when my fists collided with your face. She squirmed out of Louis and ran over to you. Screaming your name. I could tell that she loved you just by the way she held your head in her hands. Tears pored like Niagara Falls. I knew she loved you and I know it now. She needs someone like you Niall. You can take care of her. You can protect her. And I want you to make her yours. Yes..it hurts. But I know that you two love eachother and you need to be together. I just miss my mates so much! I cry myself to sleep every night. I need you guys and I love you guys! You guys are my world and I don't want to end our amazing friendships. PLEASE NIALL, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!! Please....." And then Zayn fell silent.

I had sadness in my eyes and I felt very touched. I was silent. I heard sniffling and looked behind me to see Liam, Harry and Louis all standing there. Louis was crying and so was Liam. Harry had tears and his eyes and he was the one who was sniffling.

I looked back at Zayn and quickly looked away. I looked back Lou, Harry and Liam and then back to Zayn. A small smile appeared on my face and I walked over to Zayn. I engulfed him in a hug. He returned the hug. Louis, Harry and Liam walked over to where we were standing and hugged us all. We then got into a group huddle like we do before our concerts. Our arms around eachother. I looked around to my 4 bestfriends and then looked in Zayn's eyes. I smiled and spoke

"We missed you too..." I told him, a tear rolling down my cheek. We all pulled Zayn into us and we all hugged him tightly. He smiled and was crying.

I'm glad I have my mates back...I missed my family.

***short chapter sorry. Ill update soon!!***