Jamie POV
I wash up and Dakota texted me saying we should probably talk about what happened last night. I send her a response along the lines of why ruin a good thing but then add “just kidding” I will be there in 10 minutes. I received a call from Amelia but let it go to voicemail, I cannot deal with her right now…. I would not know where to start or how I want to discuss this, plus I don’t know what me and Dakota are if anything and I cannot risk losing my wife if I am not sure. Only Dakota can give me that answer. I guess we will find out tonight.
I was on time like if my life depended on it. She had gone to her place in Vancouver the studio had rented for her to shower. I walked up to her door and knocked. She was there in a millisecond. “well I guess you were right by the door!” I say. Dakota looks up and reaches for my face. She kisses me deeply and I return her kiss deepening it and pushing my way into her mouth. Dakota allows my entry and we are playing war between our tongues. I pick her up so that her legs are straddled around my waist and lock the door.
She waves her right arm in the direction of the bedroom and I am only half aware of where I am going. I get to her bedroom and flop her down on the bed. “I thought you said we had to talk?”. Dakota nods and says, “I do want to talk but first make love to me”. I am not going to argue with the lady. I take off my t-shirt and kick off my sneakers. I am going to enjoy this…. It may be the last time I get to make love to her…. Or maybe not.
I notice she was only wearing a robe of silk when she lets it fall to the ground. She is absolutely breathtaking. I cannot imagine not being with her, not being able to breathe in her scent or touch her soft skin. I am stuck in the most impossible situation. Do I love Amelia still? Can I live without Dakota? So many questions and I do not have any of the answers right now all I have is my Dakota in front of me wanting and waiting for my touch. I resign to making sweet love to her. The most tender kind and relishing in her because I do not know what will come next.
I take off my jeans and I am completely naked underneath. I kiss her tenderly and caress her breasts while pinching her nipples just slightly. Her response is a deep, low groan and I am instantly aroused. I lay her down on her bed and my hands travel down to her stomach and then down further to her sex. I grasp it and slide two fingers into her and she gasps. With the palm of my hand I am rubbing her clitoris and I am watching my baby writhe underneath me. She is getting wetter by the second and I can feel her clamp down hard around my fingers as she yells out my name. I quickly slide my fingers out of her and flip her over “I want this dirty and fast baby” I moan and she pushes her ass towards me and whispers “take me!”. I am instantly thrashing into her with everything that I have. She yells out in silence and her legs are shaking but she keeps up to my pace slamming back into me as I rock into her. I am about to come and I tell her to come for me as she clamps down around me I feel myself coming to the edge of ecstasy and I give her one last solid thrush before climaxing inside of her and I am home. As my climax softens I can feel myself throbbing inside her still. The need is still there and I could quite possibly go again right now. I look at my beautiful vixen, my siren, my Dakota and I see the sweat around her forehead and she is panting. I slide out of her and turn her over. I am about to say something when she kisses me deeply. I forget everything in that moment and we just lay there looking into each other’s eyes. I do not remember how long we just laid there not saying a word but finally she spoke softly to me. “ I wanted to remember this night forever”. I give her a look of confusion and hurt. Is she breaking up with me?
Dakotas POV
I consider his eyes after the best sex of my life. We stay like this for a long time without saying a word and I look at this man I have fallen in love with and I cannot do this to him. I cannot make him choose between me and his family. I finally speak up “I wanted to remember this night forever” I say not knowing if that was a poor choice in words and I see the look he gives me of worry and doubt. I see his eyes tear and he holds me close and doesn’t respond right away. I caress is face with my hands and find the strength to tell him, “this cannot continue Jamie…. We both knew this was not real and that this cannot be…. I love you I really do but I am bound to a contract and you have that and a family. I cannot be the reason a marriage fails. I cannot be the reason you leave your wife. I won’t be that. He just stares shaking his head no over and over. He begins to cry, not a sob but a silent hurtful cry. I start to tear as well and tell him to stay with me the night. “Jamie, I will never forget this or you. I will never love like I do you. I am forever yours. I can only hope one day what is meant to be will be. I want you to be able to say you tried your very best to be with Amelia and that Dulcie has a father in her life. I came from a broken home and we are okay now but it took plenty of work to get this to where it is. If you love me you will understand that I cannot be the other woman or the hussy who broke up your marriage. I am fully aware that this means working together and being close and I am okay with that. I can torture myself for three movies. I can see you at premieres and I can fake friendship even though what I feel is more. Maybe one day we can all be friends. I would love for your marriage to work” I say all of this quickly and then he responds, “Is this what you really want Dakota?”. I nod and he just kisses me. After several minutes, he looks up at me and whispers “So tonight I will pretend you are mine and I am only yours and tomorrow we will begin our lie I mean lives apart but together. Tomorrow this beautiful fairy tale is over”.
We lay there for a while never really talking again. Every once in a while, we would start kissing and then love making. We cried so much while making love while holding each other and we cried until we fell asleep. Sometime during the night, I looked over and he was up looking at my face he kissed me and we made love again. When I woke, he was not in the bed but there was a note. “See you on set! I couldn’t say goodbye…. I will never stop loving you. I respect your decision and I will keep my promise to try. We will always be best friends. -Jamie. I roll over and cry my eyes out. For the next few hours I just keep telling myself I did the right thing. I must call someone but who can I really talk to this about? I decide I need to call the one person who will tell me what I need to hear…. My mom.
After hours of sobbing on the phone with my mom, I finally calm down enough to hear her advice. “Baby girl, if you love something set it free…. You did the right thing even though it hurts. He will have to get his life together and when he does you can be there. I know you want him to be yours but at the moment he is not yours to have. Kota, I love you and I am proud of you. Baby you did good… you can’t help who you love”. And with that I was renewed and spent all at once. I hung up with her, laid in bed and slept. I was gone to the world for who knows how long. I slept so long I heard banging at my door. When I opened my eyes, it was brightly lit outside my window and I got up sleepily and with a very large headache from crying. I could barely keep my eyes open they were so puffy. I walk slowly to the front door and when I open it I am surprised at who is in front of me.
