Faith ( Louis Tomlinson Fanfiction )

Chapter Fifteen

Faith's Point of View

There were two feeling overwhelming my body right now.

The first one was the feeling of his lips over mine, the feeling of my hands tangled in his hair while one of his gently cupped my face as the other was on the small of my back, trying to get me closer as if, if I was close enough our skin would dissolve to ecstasy and surround us,but in this situation there wasn't such thing as close enough.

It was The feeling of need and desire.

The other feeling was way familiar to me than the first, it came from deep inside the very bottom of my guts to engulf my head and run through my veins, a feeling that I used to feel every day a feeling that I used to live with as I lived with breathing.

That feeling was the feeling of Wrongness, of doing wrong, of being wrong. That warning, scary feeling that keep screaming in your head telling you to stop, I have once long ago came into the salvation for not feeling this horrid feeling.

I ignore it.

but just like a huge wave hitting you right in the stomach realization hit me as Harry's lips moved farther down my neck to my collar bone.

It's Harry, It's not some other guy that I can just throw away when I'm bored, He is sweet charming Harry, and I just can't do this.

"I Think we should stop" I said bluntly, my breathing still ragged.

his chin rested on my chest and suddenly I felt like I was under the spotlight.

"What? did I do something wrong, I-I'm confused" Harry said in one breathe, the last sentence coming out in a hushed whisper and I couldn't blame him, one second I was moaning while I kissed him back the other I as telling him to stop.

"No! Not at all, it's just...it feels so wrong.." I whispered the last part my head raised up so he can't see my blushed cheeks.

"I'm so sorry...I-" Harry started but I cut him off shortly.

"No Harry, I'm sorry, I just couldn't drag you in this knowing it wouldn't end well, I like you too much for that Hazza" I said my hand brushing the hair it was pulling a few moments ago.

"Oh" was all he said before the music was the only thing that surrounded us beside the unbearable tension.

"Well if it makes it any better you are an amazing kisser, Daym those lips" I said while smirking softly in a lame attempt for breaking the tension but never the less successful as I heared is nearly silent chuke and felt the breath coming out of his mouth hit my chest softly.

It was one of those moments I wished I wasn't blind just so I can look him in the eyes just to make sure that everything is okay.

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Caithy ended up joining our so called 'date' after me and harry decided that we would put what happened behind us before one of us gets hurt, even though it didn't work the best as we kept play flirting, and on the last second right before it all got serious when harry asked me if I was a virgin a loud shout came from the door which was Caithy cheerfully yelling "I AM HOME, FOLKS!" It was such a great save it was almost comical, even though I was sure I wouldn't have lied to him, all I feared was his reaction.

We ended up watching another few movies before harry took a glance at his clock telling us he had to leave.

I accompanied him to the door, leaning on the door frame knowing he is still standing.

"It was a really great...date hazza" I said smirking softly as my two fingers motioned him over, once he was close enough for me to whisper I said "well...don't take me as a slut but if you want to do that again and there are no feelings...I'm up for it" and I wished I could see his facial expression.

Just before I laid my head on the pillow I remember what tomorrow is and quickly turned to my other side facing Cai.

"Cai, can you please drop me off to the airport tomorrow at 3pm?" I whispered softly as the calm atmosphere was too soft to be broken

"Yeah sure, why though? " she asked nonchalantly

"Um..if I tell you, would yoi shout at my face?" I asked biting softly on my lips.

"Only one way to find out"

"James and Rita are coming tomorrow" I said rather quickly

"Are you kidding me? And your telling me now? What if something like last time happened? What would I tell Maria this time?" Caithy shouted, well so much for the smooth atmosphere.

"Relax nothing will happen" I said in an attempt to cal her down a little.

"I swear to god you wont get to know them ever again if anything happens-"

"Nothing will happen"