A World Without Love

3.

Kyla's pov
After all these classes it was lunch time. I usually spend my time reading but this time I ate lunch in the cafeteria. I went in line picked up an apple, a salad, and milk and went to my seat.

I quickly noticed Trey he was walking to go get lunch. I got up and went back in line acting like I needed a fork for my salad just so he could notice me.

Was I really that desperate for wanting someone to notice me? For someone to notice how bad I was hurting? Maybe.. ok yes. I don't want attention I just want someone to hold me, to care about me, for someone to understand.

I had a feeling Trey would understand, crazy huh. It's his first day here and I already want him to be mine.

I want to be happy with someone, I want someone to love me for me not because they feel pity for me. It hurts, driving that blade through my skin. It hurts so bad I don't know what to do.

I just take it out on myself for being so stupid because I deserve it.

I walked right in front of him to grab a fork before he gets to pay for his lunch. "Hey it's Kyla right"? I'm surprised he remembered my name. "Yeah it's Kyla".

"Oh okay maybe one day you can show me around town". He wants me to show him around just us two oh my. "Yeah sure... I mean yeah no problem". "Ok then see you around Kyla". He then walked to a group of friends, I saw Chrissy... Chrissy used to be my best friend until her and her friends bullied me.

I walk back to my seat thinking what the hell kyla "yeah sure... I mean yeah no problem", what's wrong with you. I was feeling annoyed that I couldn't just say yes, it wasn't that hard.

I couldn't help it his brown skin and hazel eyes made me crave him but it's also made me sad to think that I would never have him.

I mean have you see these other girls they're skinny, pretty, and actually have confidence unlike me. I'm useless, stupid, fat, ugly, I'm just everything.

I don't want to be everything... I wanna be someone who loves themselves.
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Chapter three complete
I feel like this chapter explained how Kyla felt about herself and why she does what she does.

See you in chapter four thanks for reading. 😊

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