A World Without Love

4.

"Hey I saw you over there with Kyla". Chrissy said confused. "Yeah she's really nice but so shy it's cute". "Well if I were you I would stay far away from her all she wants is attention ".

"What do you mean". I was very confused at this point, I was beginning to think I was scaring her off.

"Only because she never had a guy come up and talk to her". "She used to be my best friend but we grew apart". What happened I asked strangely. "I don't wanna talk about it" Chrissy replied annoyingly.

I look back at Kyla she's reading a book. "Where are you going". Chrissy was very jealous. I walked over there, I approach her and ask if I can sit in the empty seat next to her. "Yeah sure" she said very lightly.

"What are you reading". "The fault in our stars." She said quietly. "What's it about?" "It's just a book about some stupid love story that's all". "You don't talk much,do you". She didn't say anything after that the lunch bell rang and we both went to class.
************************* Kyla's pov
I got home around three. It was a long day mom didn't get off of work until five, so I had about two hours to myself.

As I unlocked the door to my house. I walked right upstairs shut my bedroom door flew down on my bed, pulled the sheets over my face and played some music.

While I was lying in bed, I was thinking about what Chrissy said to Trey. Was it about how much of a freak I was.

"Time to eat Kyla". "I'm not really hungry mom". I yelled down stairs wanting to be left alone.

It's the weekend, I had no friends to call, no plans. So I just sat in my room thinking about how boring and useless I am.

I began to think why I don't have any friends, it's because I'm a freak, no one likes me no one wants to be seen with me.

I felt pain that Saturday night, I had no control over my pain so the only way to get rid of the pain was to punish myself again.

I cried and cried, until I drew that blade against my wrist and watched my wrist bleed. I kept cutting until the pain was gone, I had fresh cuts on my arms.

I got up looked in the mirror looking at all my fat and how I wished to be perfect. I know no one is perfect but if only I was a little pretty it would make me happy. But I'm not...
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People think depression is sadness, crying or dressing in black. But they are wrong. Depression is when you feel so alone that you can't eat or talk. You feel so numb.😔
Chapter four completed
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