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Now a more personal chapter

I have been taking that medication about a week now. I think a full wrk from tiday.

Tiday I felt ok I guess but was kinda stressed at the movies. I'm not sure it made any improvements yet or anything noticeable. I have to start taking a whole pill now.

The other day we went outside last period for some reason?

And Wayne and Ayla and a few more people were there that I knew. At first I felt so freaking... awkward. Because I didn't want to act like I was just following him around but in reality I was.

So when they walked I would like... stay behind? Haha. And keep relatively quiet XD

Luckily he noticed and told me to like... speed up haha. Which made me feel a lot better.

I'm such an awkward person honestly.

I love socializing (if I forget about my anxiety). But I am so weird XD

I literally thanked him later

And he was like "...why the hell are you thanking me? That's what friends do"

I'm so asdfghjkl weird

I can't friend

I hung out with these kids that live next door to us (I live in an apartment at my moms)

And there was this girl who was 9. And she was so funny haha

Her brother was younger and he was irritating but it's good.

When I told her my age she was so surprised

I know kid I look like I'm 10 I hear it daily

Im so short and... undeveloped

And I act like I'm 10 most of the time honestly

(This has turned into a chapter about me roasting myself. I just hate myself)

My friend is apparently suicidal and she won't answer my texts 🙃

Great

She's my freaking neighbor though I should just get my ass up and see her but I'm so damn socially awkward holy crap-o