Only Time Will Tell (Our2ndlife/O2L)

Chapter 10~Missing you

Haley's P.O.V

I just can't belive this is going to be the last time, in along time, that I'm going to be seeing Connor. I don't know what to do. We're now in the plane waiting for it to take off. I'm of course, sitting window seat, Sam in the aisle seat, and Kian in the middle seat. Sucker. I finally stopped crying, but I still feel like a reck. I pull out my phone too see I have a new message. From the one, and only Connor Franta.

From Connor🙈❤️

To Haley

Missing you 😘

Just reading that made me start to cry again. I feel tears slipping out of my eyes.

To Connor🙈❤️

I'm missing you so much more😘

I tapped send, and started crying in my hands, making sure Kian, and Sam don't notice me. I felt my phone buzz again, so I picked it up.

From Connor🙈❤️

To Haley

That's impossible. Don't cry Haley, I promise we will see eachother soon.

What, how did he know I was crying.

To Connor🙈❤️

What how did you know I was crying?

From Connor🙈❤️

To Haley

Look out your window 😏

I put down my phone, and looked out my window. Beside my plane is Connor's plane, that will be taking off to Minnesota. I looked through each window, but one of them made me stop, and look again. I looked at that window, and guess who was there. Connor. He was making an heart symbol with his hands, and I did the same. I now started bawling again. I miss him so much, and were going to be, so many hours away from eachother. I just can't, I can't. My phone buzzed again

From Connor🙈❤️

To Haley

Please don't cry Haley

That only made me cry more. I shared another look with him. Then replied

To Connor 🙈❤️

Il try but I can't promise anything.

I pressed send, and just watched him through the plane. He was making silly little faces that made me perk up. It was probally like this for 5 minutes.

From Connor🙈❤️

To Haley

My planes about to take off 😞

I look at his plane, and it starts rolling away. I look at his window one more time, and see he's making a heart with his hands. I make a heart with my hands too, as I watch the plane roll off. I start bawling my eyes, knowing I can't see him anymore. I guess Kian noticed my crying so he said,

"Haley please don't cry. I can't bare to see you like this" he said, wrapping me with a hug.

"I'm fine, I'm just going to the washroom" I said getting up to leaving to go to the washroom. I just can't take this anymore. My heart aches. It hurts so bad.

I feel like inside of me, everything is having a wrestling match and my heart is hurting. It's getting beaten up. It hurts so much I just want all the pain to stop.

I get in the washroom, and immediately lock the door. I sit on the floor crying and crying until i can't cry no more. I take out my shaver and take out the blades. I know I shouldn't do this but I have too. I make three cuts on my side of my hip. I begin to cry again thinking of not only today but of everyday especially from when I was little. I wipe up the blood, and through it in the trash. I sit on the toliet sobbing untill I hear a knock on the door.