You Deserve To Be Loved

Chapter 5

Wrong life, Wrong guy and Wrong stupid kisses again
I fell like crying but the tears just don't seem to collaborate and simply flow
Well I think you actually know how first kiss is important to every girl, I mean you keep dreaming day and night on how it could be hoping it would be the most romantic feeling you've ever had but Knowing the kind of person I am, it was the worst day of my life not to talk about the  fact that it was taken by the wrong person Peter Jefferson and after that he  made fun of me like it's the normal thing to do after taken a girl's first kiss so to be clear he's  was  the wrong guy and more again it Was a wrong kiss.

We all also know that kind of feeling when you do an exam by which you studied like all night and you're sure you did an excellent exam so you expect at least A-  but in the end you get D and you understand you wasted your time studying it but at the same time you also feel like hell, that's how I feel right know.

"You of all people can't tell me that kiss was only a mistake "I say exasperated

"I'm sorry  I made you thought  there could be an us but there was never an us"He says forcing a smile
"What happened to the sweet Davis yesterday, the one who kissed me , what  happened to my best friend "I crack in tears stepping closer to him
"Yes your best friend and nothing more we can't ruin years of friendship for a mistake we made yesterday, I understand you won't want to talk to from today on but losing you would be something I can't stand "He says trying to wipe my tears  away and I know it's not his fault I understand him .Years of friendship can't be ruin for only yesterday's "mistake "
"It's very funny you know "I say trying my best to smile
"what? " he answers with a mix of confusion and worried face
"That the guy  always preventing that something can hurt me it's the one hurting me now"
"Bee I'm only doing this for our good like I said we can't risk to ruin our friendship for something it's quite sure will never last"I know he's pained  and I understand it by his tone
"You can't say it will never last if you don't give it a chance... "
"I'm sorry but there's nothing you can do to change my mind"He adds and enter in his car driving away the school parking leaving me all alone.
Now my question who's going to cheer me up since the only person able of doing it ,it's the same person that just hurted me. Once again wrong guy and wrong kiss

I feel hurt, angry at myself I mean how can I be so stupid I to think that someone like him would love me and after all I understand him. He did it for our own good right? But I also don't know why I'm so angry with him. We could have at least risk . You'll never know how something is going to end if don't risk you don't  right?  I think I'd already made up his mind when he said-we need to talk first thing in the morning today-but I never thought it would be this kind of talk. I woke up all happy this morning thinking It would the beginning of our us but evidently I shouldn't I have expected all this hopes.

I turn a looking around of me to see all the students are already  dismissed home, good for me at least they won't  see me crying my lungs out. I think the the only thing I need right now is a jar of Nutella, some Kit Kats and a Basin of  ice-cream too excessive I know . Lots of sugar? I know. But it's really need to run to the supermarket for that.

Too much of this, too much of that?
Yeah Fuck you society no need to think about you right now when I need to seal my broken heart .
My nanny always told me "nutella is the cure to pain, Kit Kat gives happiness and ice-cream is always ice-cream no need to explain why we need eat it but it's the best friend a human can have and right I need both three.

As I was making my way back home from the supermarket, I run into someone. Oh no those intense green eyes.
Why couldn't I run into someone else
"why aren't I surprised to see you're the person that run into me  "I still haven't lifted my head but I can sense he's smirking
"Are you dumped or what min.... "He doesn't finish saying what he's saying as soon as I raise my head. He searches for my eyes with a worry and concerned face, he looks anxious as if he's lost of words.
I know he's notice that I've been crying .My eyes are puffy from the tears, my nose is red and lips are cracked.

Stupid brain and heart of mine that  only hurts me. I run into his arms and hug because that's all I've been seeking for the past two hours. I don't know what came over me and  where I found all that courage but I'm glad I did it.
He seems to be caught of guard and surprise but  immediately elaborates everything and hugs me back. I swear this the last time I'll be as stupid as this or make a guy break my heart but for the mean time all I need is  a home and to my surprise Drew's arms are very welcoming and I know it's strange but it feels like home.

"so do you wanna talk about what happened? "he asks still with a concerned look and for the moment I don't see Drew the jackass or the bothersome Drew I've spoken to all these days. He's just another person, another Drew, a caring Drew.
I shake my head and he doesn't push further.
"Wanna be in company? "he asks and I nod in answer.
"you know something , I think the person behind all this is a Dickhead "he blurt out unthinkingly .