You Deserve To Be Loved

Chapter 10

Perfectly imperfect.
That's what we all are. It doesn't matter how good a person is, sooner or later he or she is going to hurt you. That's why we have to learn to forgive. We are all humans, we make mistakes but it's all okay. We weren't created to be perfect, we were created to make mistakes and learn from our own mistakes. We all make mistakes, even saints make mistakes. Good and innocent people make mistakes or even worst. Because the truth is that,good people are only bad people that haven't been caught.

I cry for many things, sad movies,failed grades expect in maths obviously and nightmares .
I also cry for stupid things too like him and all the problems I've created for myself in my head. But lately I've been crying mostly for myself .For my past, for the person I used to be and the person I wanted to be.

After losing weight, I decided to be another Blaire. A Blaire who would stop crying when the lights were off or when I was alone. I wanted to be a better Blaire because I knew my bad days were over. I knew society had nothing over me anymore. But I never thought I was going to be so weak.

And as far as I hate the rain, yesterday I didn't feel alone I was crying because it was raining. In that moment , I understood I wasn't the only person crying, the rain was there with me. It was also crying for its own reason. It made forget about all those terrible moments I went through and I've been going through. Those moments lost themselves like tears in the rain. I could only feel the rain's pain in those moments Because the pain it was feeling was worst than mine. The clouds couldn't handle the weight anymore,it had no choice. But I had a choice, my tears were falling not because my heart couldn't handle the pain anymore. It was falling because I was weak and because I knew it was all over.

I hated that my anger towards him suddenly turned into tears. His words confirmed to me that it Was over and I had no chance. Deep inside me I'm happy about all this situation because for the first something is pushing me to move on.

We still haven't talked since yesterday's incident and I'm not good with it. I know he's feeling guilty about all this but I think he shouldn't feel guilty because he just opened my eyes. My love for him haven't faded from yesterday to today but I know I don't like him like I used to do .

The drive with him this morning was awkward but knowing the kind of person Chloe is, she was trying her best to lighten the mood with her jokes. I on the other hand was trying to talk to him but he was totally ignoring both of us. He was angry all day and sincerely I'm the who's supposed to be angry not him.

In the cafeteria , we all finally came to know that Harriett and Travis were dating and the funny thing was that we were all expecting Travis to kiss Harriett but in the end ,Harriett was the one who kissed Travis in front of the whole school. He was a little bit shy but Harriett shrugged after kissing him like it was the most normal thing on earth. She was acting all cool but Travis continued blushing like a pepper . Wonders shall never end. I always said it, never judge a book by it's cover because as I said Harriett is the kind of person you'll never think is a free spirit and so on but she's full of surprises.

I returned home with Drew because the earlier we start making our project work the better and I also had to go to work around 5 pm. We've been working like about two hours now and the worst thing is that he's doing nothing to help . He only writes down something when I yell at him or threat him

"Did you at least write what I just dictated"I ask turning from the monitor to him rolling my eyes.
He plasters on his hot face his stupid smirk and with that I know he didn't write it.

"Write it on that stupid paper now" I demand looking at him while he's sitting at the edge of the bed.
"As much as I love girls who are bossy, you have to stop bossing me around about this stupid work "He challenges me
"What will you do if I don't "I state with a smirk
"Then I'm going to show you who's the real boss here"
He starts walking towards me with an evil smirk and begins to tickle me .
I still on the chair coolly with a neutral look not even moving by a millimeter.
I huff and roll my eyes. So naive he thought I was ticklish.