Ava
"You're gonna have to tell him sooner or later Ava. I can see how much this is hurting you," Saraii only used my first name when she was serious. It's true though, I am going to tell him. I want to tell him but I don't know how to bring it up to him, "I know he's your best friend but it's just best if you tell him."
"You're right," I sigh deeply, "but I just don't know how to bring it up to him. I already told him that I needed to talk to him next time I see him, but how do I bring up the topic?" I didn't know what to do. I remember mentioning to him the "situation" I'm in a few weeks ago. Yesterday I tried bringing it up again, but I backed out.
"Well I have to go Ava. I'll see you in class tomorrow" then she left. I walked home thinking about him. What I could do. Daydreaming about what will happen if he tells me he does like me back. I'm such a hopeless romantic.
I took out my phone and texted him. I smile once he texts back. There is never a day in which Ezio can't make me smile. Even in my down days he's always managed to make me laugh or smile. I then remembered about my conversation with Saraii. Should I bring up the topic right now? Perhaps he forgot, and if he did I'll sound stupid trying to bring it up. I mean I did mention it awhile back.
It's weird how with friends you sometimes struggle with coming up with a topic to talk about. Most convos have nothing but yea's and cool's. Between Ezio and I, we're always talking about something. Whether it's about our likings, school, or just another random subject. Our conversations are rarely boring. I guess that's something that I like about our friendship. Something that I'm scared I'll lose if I tell him how much I'm starting to love him.
Ugh I'm so stupid why did I start to fall for him? Last time I loved someone I felt like a complete useless person. He made me feel like someone who wasn't worthy of anything anymore. Someone who didn't deserved to be loved or have happiness in their life. I thought to myself. I never really have good thoughts, but lately he's been changing that. Of course he has. Despite him having a girlfriend, he treats you with so much care. He supports you. As best friends of course. Yes but either way he shows you how much he cares. That he will always be there to support you no matter what.
I finish my debate with myself as I arrive home and head to my room. I lay down and stare at the ceiling. I can't help but think of him again. Of how playful he is, how sweet and caring he gets. I've never see him in a sad or mad state. While me on the other hand, he's seen me in my sad state many times. Despite that he's always helped me get better.
I decide that I need to tell him and it has to be soon. I start writing out my text to him: "Hey Ezio, umm I have to tell you something important. But I need to see you in person..." I send it before I back out again. I hug my teddy bear as I wait for a response back. After what felt like an eternity I hear my phone ring. I guess it's now or never. I grab my phone and start to read the text....
