Ava
I won't...just come back soon. Even though it's been a week there's already so much that has happened. And I will tell you all of them. For now I'm stuck writing this during school as I have no service...again.
Ezio
I'll try i swear. And I wish I could have been by your side through everything like how I said I would and I'm sorry.
Ava
It's alright don't worry. Hopefully it comes back today.......I stare off into the distance again. I start to daydream of all the possible ways in which I'll get to see Ezio again. The past week has been hell for me. So many deadlines and is was only the end of the third week. I struggled so much to get through the week.
It's just been one week Ava. There are still many more to come. You can get through this. I kept thinking and telling myself. Trying to find my motivation in this hell the school system calls IB. 3 weeks down and 33 left to go. If you just keep thinking about school, you mind will stop wandering towards Ezio....Ezio...
What? No! Stop it! You have stuff to do. You can't dwell on pain right now. It's not pain, I told myself, I'm just remembering the nice things. Like his warm embrace, his voice...Stop it! Fine, I'll focus on this stupid homework.
I start to work on my homework again. I paused and started at my phone every now and then. Somehow I expect for the screen to light up and his name will come up saying he sent me a text. If only that were true, I thought to myself again, I have no service so I can't even text my friends. I stared at my computer screen again. Geography, next to English, was always the hardest to get through. Most of the work is just very tedious. I start typing again, but get lost in thought. Finally, I decide to close my laptop and start to walk home from the library.
On the way, I continue to daydream about the different ways in which I might see Ezio again. It was Tuesday, which means that it's been 1 week and one day since he last texted me on Facebook. It's been two weeks and two days since our first exchange in "I Love You" and our first kiss. It's been exactly one month since I first told him that I liked him. Well isn't someone keep count of what's been going on. I shake my head from the thoughts. For some reason I tend to remember a lot of things important to me. To others it might be a bit creepy, but that's just who I am.
I get home and start work on homework again. This time it's English. I hear my siblings fight again. Great, they're at it again. Where are my headphones when I need them? By the time I finish homework it's almost 10 p.m. Well then, looks like I'm not eating again tonight. I start to get ready to go to bed. Once I lay down, I start to stare at the ceiling. Memories and daydreams start to invade my thoughts. As I drift off to sleep I keep thinking of Ezio. One day, I thought, he'll be back one day. I just have to hold on to that ray of sunshine and not let it go.
Ezio
Keep it together Ezio, keep it together. I keep trying to tell myself what I done was the right thing but I keep falling into my memories. Our memories. It gets harder to breath for me and carry on. I should still be in your life Ava, I should be there with you trying to give you a better future. Yet.......I can't.
Everyday I think of her. I try not I really do but she just keeps coming back into my head. I'm straight edge, drug free, but her love, her smile, her laugh, her whole being. That was the only drug I needed. Her. I miss her. Come on Ezio focus.
I can't focus. Everytime I try to she pops into my head. I told her I would return to her life and I will and I wish it be sooner.
She keeps count. I love that, because I do to. The days aren't the same without her. I feel lost and without a purpose. A big part of me just feels empty. I feel empty.
