Ava
A few weeks have passed since I told him that I liked him. Not much has changed between us except that our friendship and our bond has gotten stronger. He's been so much more caring towards me and I towards him. However, we haven't been able to see each other because of my school. As a senior in very advanced classes, things have been very hectic.
Things can get very stressing at times, but I know that Ezio will always be there for me. I start to try and focus on the whiteboard again to see the assignment. I was in my second period spanish class. It's okay Ava. Just four more periods left and then you can text him in lunch. I've tried keeping that mentality throughout this whole time I've been in school. Over the summer I was able to text him all day. Now it's been very difficult since I have to have my phone turned off during classes.
"Hey Aves, what does it say on the board?", Jesenia asked. Jesenia is a non-native spanish speaker. They were supposed to change her schedule two weeks ago, but it seems that the counselors haven't done it yet.
"It says," I struggle a bit to see what's on the board since I forgot my glasses again; then to top it off I sit in the back of the class, "Explica lo que está pasando en la foto utilizando el vocabulario y la tema de esta unidad. It's just saying to explain what's in the picture using the theme and vocab of this unit."
"Oh okay. That makes sense. Thanks Aves," she turns around again. I turn to my right and I start talking to Renee. Maybe I'll get distracted a bit because right now he's on my mind too much. More than he should be.
"Renee, did you do the homework?"
"Yea, did you?"
"Umm...I started on it but I didn't finish the last three questions"
"I wonder why," she says sarcastically. I right away go back to yesterday and remember my conversation with Ezio. I had a small panic attack, and even though he wasn't there in person he was helping me calm down by texting me really cute and sweet things. Later that same night he was being even more sweet to me. Complimenting me and saying how I looked beautiful.
"Renee, he was telling me the most cutest things yesterday," I finally gave in and just told her about how he sent me cute texts yesterday. I could start to feel the heat going to my cheeks as I start to remember. Why can't I just be with him already? I want to be able to hug him without letting go. I want to be able to go out places with him but as a couple not friends.
Everyday I struggle so much to keep my little ray of hope. My chances seem to slim down little by little everyday. Is it just me? Am I being too pessimistic? Or am I hoping for too much?
I go through the rest of the school day just thinking about yesterday. I want to ask why he said that. Should I? Maybe not, I'm just not going to think too much about it because than that leads to too much hope. Overthinking a situation that may not happen yet.
As soon as the final bell rings, I immediately turn on my phone and text him. As I head to my locker I remember all our talks we have. All the fun moments. All the cute moments. I sigh to myself. Don't think too much on it Ava. Right now you guys are still best friends.
***
I stared at my screen. Unable to capture what I just read. I felt my heart break into a million pieces. I didn't know what to text or feel. I felt mad, hurt, in pain, betrayed, and most of all I felt empty and broken.
I felt something wet stroll down my cheeks. Before I knew it I was sobbing into his hoodie. Clutching at my chest to keep it from breaking any more. I cried more than ever before in the last year. I cried as if I had lost him forever. I didn't know what to do.
He kept telling me he won't be gone forever. That he promises he'll be back. What if he forgets about me? Us? I told him how much I love him. How I'll continue to even through my hurt. Because I have liked him for three years. Now that I realize I love him, I know it'll never go away.
He'll stay forever in my heart and mind. He'll always be my knight. Not in shining armor but in jeans, black vans and a white t-shirt. He'll see me with beautiful light brown eyes with small flecks of black. Who loves his family and cares more for others than himself...I'll always love him. Always have, always will............
