My depressing journal

Entry 3

Love. Yes today is all about love. Such a silly thing if you ask me. It hurts to fall in love. You either get used or denied. I love this guy and he claims he loves me back but he never shows it and it seems like he doesn't. Heck I don't know. I'd like it if he loved me back but that won't happen. He's the only person I go to when I'm sad but who do I go to when I'm sad because of him? It's annoying if I'm being totally honest. I mean I'm probably messing around with a fuckboy and that isn't fun. He seems so sweet and so nice but it hurts. Every time we speak it'll be so nice but then he'll immediately ask for nudes and it's annoying. I want to love him and I want him to love me not to use me for nudes. It's so stressful as he means everything to me. He fucking went ahead and turned out to be a fuckboy. UGH. I don't even know how to feel about it tbh. He said he loved me, he said he would do anything for me, he said he would never want to hurt me and then he goes and fucking tears my heart out. I will cut him with one of the glass shards of my broken heart. Why do I always fall for the bad ones. I just want to find a nice guy who won't use me!!!