Bonded Hate (Matt Smith)

Chapter 6: Forgiving

MATT'S POV

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I couldn't believe it! I was angry at myself. Lila had told be a little bit about Cody, I shoud have know as soon as I saw the contact name on her phone. Now, because of me, she might be dead. I was still confused though. I don't know if she actually loved me. Why didn't she tell me that she was in trouble. Maybe she didn't actually love me.

"Matt." Karen said peeking through to door. "What, what do you want." I said rather harshly. "If she hurt you, why are you so upset about her. She brought it upon herself." Karen stated. "I don't know. We were really close, and I don't know what happened. It was going good" I said trying my hardest not to break down in tears.

"Arthur and I are always here for you." Kaz murmered. "WHAT THE FREAK HAVE YOU TWO BEEN DOING?! YOU WERE DUE ON SET AN HOUR AGO!" Moffat said storming through the door.

"Steven, please can Matt have the day off today. I know that this is very unexpected, but he is going through some hard times." Karen stood up and stared at Steven. "What? NO! You two are supposed to be actors, now get yourself together and be in makeup in two minutes!" Steven screached.

"Typical Steven." Kaz laughed. I just stood there in shock still. I dug my head into Karens shoulder and started crying. She stroked my hair softly. "Come on stud." Kaz said. I stood up and walked out of the trailer door to makup.

"MATT! You can never be- whats wrong." My stylist Ella said, seeing my read puffy eyes. I just sat there waiting for her to apply a montain of makeup onto my face. "Lets cover up those undereyes and make your wonderful green eyes pop even more." Ella smiled.

After makup I stumbled over to set. I knew I had to get my act together. This was very unproffesional. I walked onto set and waited for the director to call action. In this scene, the Doctor was supposed to be upset because he thought he had just lost the ponds to a Dalek.

ACTION!

"No, they are not gone. They can't be." I said, starting to cry as the script had told me to. "Doctor, you know that they are, stop acting like a hormonal teenager and pull your act together." River said. "They were your parents River!" I screamed. "Do you not miss them? You saw them dead! Amy..." I mumbled as told. "SHE IS DEAD!" River shouted, going to slap me.

All of a sudden, I felt like it wasn't an act. Lila was probably dead. I fell to the floor, feeling weak. I put my head in my hands, crying. "That wasn't in the script" I heard somone wisper. My eyesight went blurry from crying. "CUT!" The director screamed, an echo going across the whole building.

Karen ran over to me and helped me up. I stood up slowly, trying not to fall back down to the floor. I could hear everyone wispering to eachother. I don't know what happened, but my mind just shut off. I fell to the floor, the last thing I saw was everyone crowding around me.

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I woke up in my trailer bed with a note and a cup of water next to me. The note read "Channel 4"

I turned on the T.V to channel 4. I saw pictures of Lila.

Lila Smith is in fact, not dead. She has been in a coma since late last night. It has also been said that Matt Smith was the man going into Lila's house late that night. They had been dating for about 4 months, when they mysteriously broke up. Maybe this is the reason she was cutting? We have been showed this video from Lila's home security system.

It showed a video of Cody picking Lila up by her hair, and throwing her against the wall, giving her a few quick punches. The video had been cut to the part where I pull up. Cody picked up Lila and threw her into the closet. She seemed to have been clenching her bleeding side in pain.

I started to cry, I couldn't take it anymore. It was my job to protect her and I failed. I had decided that I was going to go visit her in the hospital. It is only about 3 hours away. I jogged out to my car, not even bothering to ask anybody. She might be dead soon, and I need to be there with her.

As I drove away, I could hear Karen screaming something. She seemed angry.

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After a very long drive, I finally arrived at the hospital. I sprinted inside to the check in desk. "Lila Smith, I'm here to see Lila Smith!" I frantically yelled. "I'm sorry, we have been told not to accept any visitors. We would like to minimize her contact with people at the moment." The lady said, in a rather harsh tone. "Please" I wimpered. "Fine! Let me check with the main office."

After what seemed like forever, the lady finally reapperared with a big stack of papers. "Please fill these out" She stated then gave me the papers. "Sure" I mumbled. I quickly scribbled in the anwers, then I walked over the the front desk and handed it to them.

"Right this way Mr. Smith." She said while walking down the hall. "Thanks." I walked inside the room and saw Lila in the bed hooked up to all these cords and bags of stuff. She looked so peaceful, yet so angered
while she lay there asleep on the bed.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." I wispered while gently grabbing her hand. "Please wake up. I don't care if you don't love me even a bit, but please wake up for me. I need to hear your voice again. I need you." I said, wet, saltly tears streaming down my face. "Please."