Bonded Hate (Matt Smith)

Chapter 9: Waking up

MATT'S POV

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"Job or Lila, job or Lila, job or Lila." I said to myslef while I was pacing around the room. I sat on my sofa for about another 20 minutes before I decided that I couldn't get through this alone. I grabbed my phone that lie on the table and dialed Arthures number, knowing that he would understand.

"Hello?" I said hesitantly as the ringing stopped. "Hey Matt, what's your problem this time?" He asked with a slight chuckle. "How did you, never mind. Moff told me that I had to choose between Lila and my job because I get too distracted." I say twirling my arms in the air.

"Tough situation dude. If it were me, I would choose the job. You can always find another girl just like Lila, but you will never in a million years get an opportunity like this." "I know man, but Lila is amazing, and I can't help but feel responsible that she is in a hospital right now." "Just think about what Lila put you through. She said that she didn't love you then ran away. SHE put this on you man."

How could Arthur say something like that? I guess he did have a point though. I don't know why I am even stressing, I am pretty sure that we are broken up anyway. It wasn't that simple though. I loved Lila, she brought me out of the dark, the world of hate that used to engulf me. I saved her, and she returned the favor.

But my job, it is a one in a life time opportunity. Maybe after I leave the show we could get back together, if she wants to. Once again, I don't even know if she likes me let alone loves me. "Job." I mutter into the phone then hang up.

I dial Moff's number, knowing that if I didn't tell him my decision now, I would change my mind.

Bring Bring Bring.

"What's the problem?" "I have made a decision." I say confidently. "What is it then boy?" "Job." I state. I let out a big sigh as I hear Steven on the other end of the phone laughing. "I'm glad, I was afraid that I would loose my best actor." I laugh and hang up the phone muttering a quick goodbye into the phone before I press the red button.

What had I done?

I run my hands through my hair and walk over to the kitchen to eat away my pains. After 2 bowls of cereal and a sandwhich my phone started ringing. I picked it up and answered. "What?" I say a little harsh. "Um Mr. Smith, we are getting signes that Lila Smith is waking up. We can not find any record of family, so could you come to the hospital." the woman says. "Yeah." I mutter and hang up the phone.

I grab my car keys, phone, and put on my coat. I run to my car, trying to dodge the rain that had started falling. Once I am in my car, I pull out of the parking space and drive away.

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Once I get to the hospital I run in to the front desk. They make me sign a paper, and with that, I am off to room 349. I sprint into the room, and am welcomed by the nurse. "She should be waking up any minute from what her moniters are saying!" The girl says about screaming from joy. I sit down next to her and grab her hand, holding it tight.

"Come on wake up I can't wait any longer!" I wisper in her ear. "Please" I sag my head down to the point where it's touching my chest, waiting for her to open her eyes.

LILA'S POV

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I could hear Matt talking to me, but I couldn't open my eyes or move my body parts. It was like my head was telling me to wake up, but my body was refusing. "Come on wake up I can't wait any longer!" I hear Matt wisper in my ear followed my a soft raspy "please".

I struggle to open my eyes, but all the forces of the universe were telling me to slip back into a coma. I lie there for a little bit, still not able to get enough strength to move. Matt was shaking my hand a little, his big monkey, sweaty hands clamping to my small cold ones.

I flutter my eyes open just long enough to see Matt's beautiful green/brown eyes. "Hello." I manage to spit out. "Hey Lila!" Matt says with a huge smile plastered on his face. "Thank you for waking up." He wispers, his hot breath making my hair flow a little. "It was hard, but I did it."

I don't know why I didn't just stay asleep though. I didn't have anything to live for except Matt, though I was posotive that he would find a new girl. He was THE doctor, it is in his nature to attract women. I struggle to move, but force my hands to pull my body up so that I was now sitting upright. I let out a whimper as I sit up, the pain shooting through my body.

Matt looked at me concerned. "Calm yourself chika." He says. My head was thumping and all of my muscles ached. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes, threatning to fall. Matt slowly put his hand on my face, pushing the fly away hairs behind me ears. "I love you." I mumble. Matt's eyes widened, clearly taken off guard.

"I- you are beautiful." Matt said. Did he not love me anymore? I could tell that he was trying to avoid saying I love you. I let out a fake smile and closed my eyes wanting to go back into the coma. It was nicer, in my dreams, Matt loved me. I like my dreams more then reality.

MATT'S POV

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I loved her, I just couldn't say it. I didn't want to get even more attatched to her before I left her. She smiled, obviously fake. She closed her eyes, and her hand went limp. She had probably just fallen asleep, but I wanted to make sure. "Nurse, um she just fell asleep. This is normal correct?" I ask. "Yeah, I have seen this plenty of times before." She smiled.

"You have seen what?" I asked. "She is... hurt not only physically." "What do you mean? What have you seen?" I demand. The nurse smiles a wide smile and replies, "Love."

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OOOOH! What will Matt dooo? He already agreed on job. AHHH SO MUCH SUSPENSE!" Bye bye