It's All In My Mind

Big Enough

Cry out when there's no solution.
Expect things to get done by itself.
My life is like a rollercoaster,
I close my eyes for the majority of the ride...

I don't know if they expect better.
Or if they see potential in me.
But when it comes down to it,
My hands begin to sweat and my knees fall too weak...

I'm *********.
I'm a ********.
I don't like to admit it but I know it's true.

I'm ****.
I can do so much better.
I try to change for the better,
But it never stays.

Damn.

Why doesn't it stay?

Big enough,
Are you big enough?
To take down the monsters that lurk under my bed?

Big enough,
Are you big enough?
To let the words escape when I know it's not fair?

I tell myself this,
and knock myself down,
I want to settle for this,
but I know it's not enough.

Guess I am not big enough.

Guess I'll have to learn the hard way.
Even though it's gonna hurt.
At least I'll learn from my past mistakes,
But will I?

As it stings,
As it burns,
As it scars,
Within the cracks, of my heart.

But tell me,
Am I big enough?
Am I big enough?
Accept me as the person I know that I am.
Big enough, am I big enough?
I know the answer  already, but I pretend it's not there...