It's All In My Mind

Insecure

I may have permanently fucked up,

Why did I do it?

Because I'm an idiot, that's why.

I'm mad at myself.

I shouldn't have to feel this type of way,

Just because I don't like a few things about myself?

I'm just listening to Ari,

She secretly gives me hope (faith),

But that's somewhat different.

You don't know what you have until it's gone.

This rings so loud and clear like the liberty bell used to if it was truth.

Don't be insecure.

I know you can't control it,it happens,

But don't it control you to the point where you know it's gonna hurt,

And still go along with it.

We all have our dislikes and doubts.

I wish it was easy, but it's so harder than it looks.

Funny how I was better off before rather than who I am now and the person I was trying to achieve from the start.

I couldn't predict what would happen next,

Just empty guesses.

I feel like crying but that's not gonna help.

I still have learned,

Maybe if I keep preaching to you,

You will fully understand what I mean and soon,

I will to.

And now, I just wait and mentally suffer,

Praying that it will be okay...