A Thousand Winds

Chapter Ten: Divulgation

I opened my misty eyes but it felt so heavy. My vision was blurry and I can barely see anything. I was woken up by a creaking sound of the door as it opens but then, someone loudly closed it.

Damian?

He left me. He left me so quickly and I feel like the whole world has collapsed. I tried to stand up to stop him from leaving but I can't move my legs, I can't move my arms and I can't move my body.

Tubes were lingering on my chest and my whole body. I tried so hard just to sat on my bed. My whole body was aching and shaking but I managed to remove the intravenous that was inserted into my vein.

My eyes were filled with tears. I blink twice to get my vision clear. I scanned the whole room but everything was just white and bright. A hospital?

"D-Damian," I called him. My voice. It sounds so dead. I can't shout. It's not too powerful enough to reach him.

"D-Damian!" I called out loud. I'm scared. He can't hear me anymore.

Tears were still flowing from my eyes like a rain dripping so hard, then Mother stormed inside my room looking so worried and shocked at the same time.

"What is it!?" She asked.

"W-Where? D-Damian?" I whispered in a brittle voice. My body felt so weak. I can't speak properly.

"Damian?" Her eyebrows rutted. "Who was that, honey? I don't know him."

"No." I shook my head.

"I don't know who you are talking about, Seraphine."

"No, Mother." I looked at her and cried. "I have to see him, Mom. I have to."

"Him? Seraphine, wake up. You have been in a coma for almost three weeks and this is the first time you woke up since then. Honey, please?!" She looks so distressed.

What is she saying? I don't understand it. I don't understand anything. I don't want to understand it!

I tried to stand up even if my whole body were shaking from pain, but tears rolled down my face as I heard what my Mom said.

I shook my head. No, that's not true!

I burst into anger and wreck the whole room with all of my strength.

"No! No! No! That's not true!" I shouted even if I felt so weak. I even throw my dextrose stand on the floor and remove every chest tube that was inserted into my body.

I don't know what's true and I don't know what's not. I put my hands on my head and pulled my hair from my scalp so hard. I want to hurt myself. I don't want to believe it. This can't be happening.

Mother tried to stop me but she can't do anything. She tried to grab my hand to keep me from throwing things and removing every tubes and needle that was inserted into my body.

I want to see him. I want to see him so bad! Why did he leave me alone?

"No, Seraphine. Honey, what's happening to you?!" She asked. Mom is already crying but she doesn't know the pain that I am feeling inside. It's difficult for her while she's seeing me like this, seeing me in this kind of situation, but what should I do? I can't do anything.

I cried and just cried my heart out. I cried so hard but he's already gone. Where is he? I need him right now.

I know, he's going to come back. He loves me. Tears even streamed down my face by the thought that he loves me, but why did he leave me alone?

Mom hugged me so tight but I felt so weak and I just fell on my knees. My whole body was shivering with fear with a thought that he might not come back anymore.