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The story of Her..

When I was in 8th grade, I was young and immature. Boys really don’t appreciate how I looked because I was a bit chubby. But then, in this stage of my life wherein I had crushes, it wasn’t really a big deal for me.

But this one boy really stood out, you can call him Jad. I don’t know what the hell am I thinking then, but I know to myself that I like him. He was a senior. 3 years older than me. Of course, he will not notice me because there are a lot of girls in high school who’s prettier and famous than me. So as what I said, it wasn’t a big deal for me. I just have a crush on him, and with that I’m always excited to go to school just to see him.

Every day, I’m stalking him. Ahaha! I stalked him just only to see him nothing more. Even if means seeing him from afar. Whenever I see him, I wish everything freezes so I can go near him and stare at his gorgeous face and maybe, just maybe, steal a kiss from him. Ahaha!

One day, after a few weeks of stalking, I was stunned because he was walking towards our school bus. And yes, he’s a friend of my bus mate. Shocking!!! But I thought to myself, destiny is working its way on me. I kept my composure so that he won’t notice that my cheeks are tomato in color or whatever.

My bus mate introduced Jad to our bus driver. Little did he know I am close to the bus driver Ahaha! Chance!? It is possible? Or not.

I overheard that he’ll be riding with us because he will go to my bus mate’s house. And you know what, I just stared at him. Unfortunately, he caught me! Damn! I felt embarrassed and looked away from him. “Fcuk! He’s so handsome!”

The following days, he would ride again and again and again with us. For so many days, it’s been like that, and I wish it’ll stay that way. Our bus driver knew that I like Jad. Oh, there were only two people who knew I like Jad; my best bud Brandy and our bus driver Julio. How? Since that day he rode with us, Julio noticed the tomato face I wore after he caught me looking at Jad.

Julio introduced me to Jad. At first it pissed me off, thinking what Julio did might give him a hint that I like him and would scare him away and not ride with us again. But somehow deep inside, I felt happy because he knows me already and he talked to me and gave me his warmest smile that melted my heart. But the talk we had was kinda short. I can’t talk properly talk in front of him and the longest word I think I said was, “Yeah, see you around.” So I promised to myself, that the next time I see him I’ll greet him and talk to him properly.

The following day, during lunch time, I saw and greeted him. It went well, the greeting only. The conversation never happened yet. So, whenever he sees me or I see him, we never fail to greet each other. I was happy then because I didn’t expect that a senior will talk to a 9th grader. He’s so nice and very handsome and hot.

The last day that I saw her was memorable. He joined our bus again and sat beside me. We had s good exchange of conversation, with our bus mates joining us of course. I said to my other bus mate that I’ve wanted to have a puppy. Then all of a sudden, he talked to me and said;

 “You want a puppy?”

“Yes of course!” I replied.

“What if that puppy is just a stuff toy, would you still want it?”  He told me that with grin on his face which made my heart beat 10 times faster than the normal rate . I didn’t expect this to happen but we talked a lot for whole ride till we reached our destination.

Sadly, that was also the last time that I will see him and talked to him. He graduated and went to college, and I continue with my high school. No communication at all.

The whole time I was in high school, I tried dating boys and even made guy friends. Oh, I also had boyfriendS. But there are times that he still crosses my mind.