Guess what? I'm failing a weighted class. Because I don't do the work. Because I can't understand it. "You're my daughter. You shouldn't be failing anything." I constantly hear this. I used to be good, but I just can't anymore. I simply lack the will and energy to push myself to succeed in anything. "You can do better than this." Okay. But what if I can't? Maybe I've gone so long passing without studying that now that I need to, I have no idea how?
"You're not gay." Okay, I never said I was gay. I said pan. Why is it such a bad thing for me to like girls? Why am I forced to feel like I'm failing at life simply because I like girls? Is it such a bad thing for me to like something other than dudes? "You're not gay." Okay. I've told you I'm not gay. I still like guys. Why can't I like people who aren't guys? Why do you get to tell me who I am? "Because I'm your mother. I know you and you are not gay." But what if I am? Why does you being my mother mean you can decide who I am and who I can and can't like?
"You shouldn't be failing history and English. It's in your blood to be good at it." Alright. I get it. I've heard that for years. Why do you keep reminding me? I do good on the tests. It's the work I can't do. I simply lack the will to do it. I'm not stupid, so why do I keep feeling like I am? I have B's in those classes though. "You're on the brink. Bring it to an A." I'm trying. I really am. It's just so hard. I can't remember my assignments or when they're due. Why do I have to be perfect at everything? Isn't it okay that I'm passing?
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Vent
Non-FictionThis once was where I would talk about my mental state but I've healed so now it's where I attempt to motivate readers by using my experiences. Also just me talking about all the shit going on in my life. Who knows, maybe someone can learn from or...
