Twitta// Z.M

Thirty-Nine

Zayn: soooo

Justinebishes: .. so?

Zayn: are things going to be awkward between us now?

Justinebishes: I mean it's up to u... before we establish that... we should figure out what we are/wanna be..?

Zayn: I'm with Jelena

Justinebishes: So you don't want me?

Zayn: I never said that..

Justinebishes: you can't have us both

Zayn: I know and that's why this is so damn hard. Gigi and I have been together for over a year and I know that I love her and we planned our lives together... but with you... I feel so fucking free. So alive. So much like myself. I can vibe with you and we can chill, we drink together, smoke together, and Allah forgive me for these thoughts, but I feel like us fucking would be great too. I tried to push myself away

Zayn: but it wasn't working. You know how damn jealous I was when you started talking to the guy? I wanted to fucking beat the sho outta him and kiss you to oblivion but I knew that I couldn't. I just want you.. your souls, heart, mind, and body. I want it all but I don't know if I'm ready to leave the person I have already promised my heart to.

Justinebishes: wow... I actually don't have any words. The only thing I can really say is that I WON'T be the side chick. I've been both the main and side before and it never EVER feels good sharing your man with somebody else. If you love her, have her. I'm not a home wrecker. No matter how many time I imagine myself in your bed, stripped down to my most vulnerable state. Or you fucking me over and over, I know that it won't happen because you already have someone for that.

Zayn: But I don't want to let you go

Justinebishes: How can you let something go that you never had?

Zayn: You might not have known it but you were mine since we met in that hotel room. You were mine when you wrote that song about me. You were mine when we both went up on national television and kissed for millions of people to see. You were mine and you might not of realized it until now, but deep down, I know that you've given your heart to me..

Justinebishes: But you haven't given yours to me. This isn't up for a debate. I wasn't yours and I never was. I'm not an object to be claimed. You acted as if you didn't want me all those times, why did you change your mind now?

Zayn: because even though I try so fucking hard to forget about you, deep down I know that I'm falling for you. I'm falling for your corny texts and beautiful pictures. Your hilarious tweets and your annoying ones too. I'm falling for you harder every time we talk over the phone and you talk about your day or when you reply to your fans with so much love.

Justinebishes: 😕

Justinebishes: Why didn't you just tell me?

Justinebishes: I've been pasted falling, I've slammed down into it and I know for a fact that I love you. Hell, I loved you before I even got to know you.. I just can't be the person who rips you and your girlfriend apart. You have a week to decide and if by then you haven't, you've already lost me.

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Justinebishes: *Screenshot* BITCH IDEK WHAT TO SAY OR DO... what if he doesn't choose me?

DayumKamari: oh baby.. I know I encouraged this but if I would have known he'd want you to be the side hoe... I wouldn't of said anything.

Justinebishes: I just wish he'd just leave her. What does she have that I don't.. cause last I checked, I'm a motherfucking 10000000 whereas she's a 2.

DayumKamari: u are everything and more. It's his lose if he doesn't choose you. Just know that no matter what, you are greater than perfect. You are the true definition of gorgeous. And know that your equally perfect and gorgeous bestfriend will always be here

Justinebishes: I know you will baby. I love you so much

DayumKamari: I love you too babydoll💖

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Zayn: okay...