Twitta// Z.M

Forty-Seven

-Babyyyy.. Wyd??-

-Packing, wbu?-

-Packing?? For what? And I'm
Sitting with Kamari but she keeps
Talking about dick🙄-

-I'm going back to England to
Visit my family.-

-Oh.. that's nice😊 How long are
U staying for??-

-About a month-

-A month? Wth? When do you
Leave?-

-I leave in 2 days-

-Did you even think to ohh.. idk
Tell me? Maybe a heads up that my
Boyfriend would be leaving me for
a month?-

- I was going I tell you tomorrow
When I came over🤷🏻‍♂️-

-Wow😒 that makes me feel
So much fucking better-

- What the fuck do you want me to do?
I haven't seen my family in a while
I miss them Justine.
The world doesn't always revolve around
you, love!🤔-

- It's not like I'm asking u to change ur
Plans. I was just hoping that since
We've been together for literally
5 months now you'd tell me when
You are leaving the CONTINENT-

-Shit. I'm sorry okay? This is exactly
Why I'm going🙄-

-The fuck is that supposed to mean?-

-You're always in my business.
You always want to be near me, touching me,
Talking to me. You act like a fucking child Justine. I need a break. I need a break from you and this career for a little while.
When I get back we can continue but
For now I just need you to stop
Clinging on to me. I swear, it was never this
Bad with Gigi-

-I'M CLINGY? You never have time for me!
I'm always asking for your attention
Because you don't give me any. Sorry for
Being your GIRLFRIEND and wanting
To talk about our days or just have
A normal conversation. If the relationship
Is so bad, then why the fuck are
We still in one?-

-Tbh, Idek🤷🏻‍♂️-

-Damn, well okay then. Have fun with
fake ass, ugly-ass, stupid ass Jelena.
Don't hit my line no more. You want us done,
Then we're done. Fuck being in a one sided
Relationship.🤷🏾‍♀️-

Real life

Zayn's POV

"Shit... what the fuck did I just do?" I groaned, throwing my head back.

I was being irrational, I know. I didn't mean most of what I said.

I'm just so frustrated.

Mum had called and told me that Safaa had been getting into fights recently in school. Something I NEVER expected from her. She believes that if I talk to her than she'll do better.

But it won't work, it never has.

I try my hardest to be the best person out there but it's so fucking hard when every single person in your life is constantly relying on you.

I don't mind most of the time but sometimes I just snap.

I don't think Jussy is clingy, I just think I'm getting too attached. I'd gone into this relationship mainly wanting more publicity but as we grew closer I just couldn't help myself.

Her goofy nature is something I crave now. I just don't know what to do.

On one hand I have Gigi. The girl I have been loving and lusting over for forever, waiting for me to return to her. But then I have this beautiful black goddess in front of me, luring me and tempting me into doing things I have never done before.

I love Justine. I know it now.

But I'm not ready to love anyone other than Gigi.

Or, well, I felt that way after I had gotten extremely high and drunk.

I shouldn't of replied to her texts while I was intoxicated but I let my emotions control me. All the fear I had about moving on was unleashed on her and now I feel so fucking terrible.

I wonder if she's crying?

Dear Allah, if she is I will hate myself so much.

Now to think of what to do to get her back.

I don't wanna be cheesy but I feel like it's the only way. Justine hates to admit it but she loves that shit. The flowers sent to her doorsteps. Chocolates that were "specially imported" just for her, picnics in the park, etc.

She loved that shit so much and I wanna give her it.

Maybe tomorrow I can go to her house with some flowers, a stuffed bear maybe? Her favorite foods, etc.

But then I'll feel shitty having to leave her for England the next day...

Maybe I can bring her with?

Mum is dying to meet her.

I could also surprise her with a shopping spree.

I just hope she'll forgive me. I don't want to lose her even though I technically just did.

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Btw bitties, I entered this book into the watty's bc why not?