You're so ugly and fat.
The voice says
As I look in the mirror.I know.
I think
As I work myself
To the breaking point.Why do you look the way you do?
The voice asks me
As I look in the mirror.I don't know.
I think
As I make myself throw up
All that I'd eaten.You'd be better off dead.
The voice sneers
As I look in the mirror.I know.
I think
As I drag the silver knife
Across my body.Why don't you just disappear?
The voice asked
As I look in the mirror.I don't know.
I think
As I search my face,
Looking for some hint of the old me.Why don't you know?
The voice viciously asked
As I look in the mirror.I'm not sure.
I think
As I furrowed my eyebrows,
Thinking of times past.You're really worthless you know.
The voice commented
As I look in the mirror.Am I?
I thought,
Listing my head,
Feeling the hair slide over my shoulder.Yes, you really are.
The voice scoffed
As I look in the mirror.Are you sure?
I thought,
Reaching out to my reflection,
Trying to reach myself.Yeah, you're just a waist of space.
The voice hitched
As I look in the mirror.Oh.
I thought
As I traced my eyes along
All my old scars.It that all our have to say?
The voice asked
As I looked in the mirror.Yes. I've been told that many times.
I thought
As I caressed my stomach,
And felt my ribs.You're nothing.
The voice said
As I looked in the mirror.I know.
But I wish I was something.
Something to someone
Out there in the big world.
I thought,
As I looked away from the mirror,
Towards the window.You'll never be anything to anyone.
The voice hit,
As I looked back to the mirror.I hope that's not true.
I thought,
Noticing the dark circles
Hiding under my eyes.Oh, it's true.
The voice sneered,
As I look in the mirror.No, it's not.
I thought,
Turning away from the mirror,
And closed the bathroom door.I'm done with this.
I want my old self back.
I don't want all this badness in my life.
I said aloud
As I walked out of my room,
Down the stairs,
And out into the world,
Silencing that voice.That voice in the mirror.
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