Alone

Present(Pt 1.)

Welcome to the present. This section is about one specific person. They know who they are. They are the reason why I did what I did. 

Continue reading, don't stop now. It's too late for that. You took me for granted once, lets not do it again. Anyway, lets continue the introduction to the present.  

You might be wondering now, what happened in the present that was so terrible. I'll be telling you my present in about 3 different parts. This is part 1. Well, here goes nothing. 

I currently attend clas---

Lets not do that, start over.

I go to school at Lakeside High School. I'm in 11th grade. I'm going to share a story with you, it's technically from the past, but it affects my present, so shall we?

10th grade year:

Boys.

Guys. 

Males. 

I've never really noticed them until there was one. I had all my classes with him 9th grade and 10th grade year. He was nice to me and I was nice to him. Nothing big, I considered him a friend, little did I know that later he would change me life for the worst. His name was Jay. I didn't like him when I first met him. We were friends but we weren't that close. Towards the end of 9th grade year, he started dating Madeline. I didn't really care about her or him after that. Soon, they both would take my 8th grade year for a long ride that I couldn't get off of. They dated for a very short time, maybe 2 or 3 weeks. I didn't really care though, it didn't matter to me. He wanted her back. But, she didn't want him. She would never want him again, until she saw him doing better than her. By the time they broke up, it was summer time and I didn't talk to him nor her over the summer. 

10th grade year:

Jay and I started off the school year as just friends. Then we became really close friends. And this right here is where it all started:

Art class. More like social hour. Standing up. Painting. Moving around. I look around, trying to find our teacher. I catch him staring at me. I stare back. He flashes me a smile. A smile that fucked me over. That damn smile. I put my hair behind my ear and smile back. I turn around to hide the fact that I'm blushing. 

That's where it all started. That stupid smile. 

Jay, this one is for you. I wanted you in my future but that wont happen. Not now, not ever. 

Welcome to my pain, you get to share some of it now. I bet you knew about how I was feeling, but you didn't care, did you? 

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