Most people you meet would recollect me as the quiet, gentle type, but my mother would say I am the epitome of a rebel. She always says "Charlie Marie you've gone past the point of no return." I am 17 years old, I smoke as much as a New Jersey bar whore and my sense of style may just be from the wrong generation, but I don't give a damn. As for my mother, why she couldn't stop me from being extraordinary even if she wanted to. If someone would ask me to sum up my life into one word I would say "shitty". I believe that may just be the perfect word for it, not only because I'm a rebel to our fucked up society, but because my father is a low life asshole who cheated on my mother and walked out when I was 3 months old. The last guy that I dated and didn't just hook up with was West Sanders. This was a year ago and we dated for 3 years. I was a stupid girl who was in love with a pothead. Most people thought I was gentle because I excluded myself from 99 percent of the people in my school. West and I didn't tell anybody our business and I'm sure a lot of people thought I had no clue about West smoking pot and being wild. I kept my second self to the people who deserved to see it. I did pot about four times and drank more than I can count, but I classified myself as a closet druggie and alcoholic. That pretty much all ended when West and I did. Everyone thought West and I would get married and start a family some day, and it got to the point where even I started to believe that and then one day we were sitting on his couch and he just looked over at me and said "Charlie, I love you." Yes, I know, that should've made me so happy, especially since we didn't say 'I love you' to each other and this was the first time he'd said that to me, but I just said "West I gotta go." I didn't even give him a chance to react or say anything back, I just got up and got the hell out of there. He called me later that night and I didn't even have the guts to answer him. I did the worst thing someone could ever do to a boyfriend/girlfriend I texted him and said "We're over." He didn't reply and we never spoke again after that. I dumped him because I was scared of him knowing how much I loved him, I couldn't possibly be in love and get hurt. My mom said I was the biggest douche bag of all time and she couldn't believe a girl could make such a boyish move. So you see, I was toxic to anyone who decided to come into my life. I was going to end up killing you, I was just like my cigarette, addicting. Then I would slowly destroy you and you wouldn't even realize it until it was too late...
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The Almost Infinity
Teen FictionLove can deceive, kill, dazzle. But what can't love do? Love can't give us back the people we cherish most. Charlie Richards is on the summer break of her Junior year at Brookmont High School. In the midst of trying to figure out what happens after...