Submissive cravings

Chapter 4

~VIC’S POV~

Finally, after the little show I put up for Jaime, we arrived at his house. It was located in Pacific Beach, right by the sea. The view from the terrace was astonishing. I fantasized about how cool and relaxing it would be to write songs with such a marvelous landscape in front of you.

Jaime showed me around the rest of house. It was surprisingly big for someone living alone.

“Why would you need so much space?” I blunted as he guided me through his personal cinema and bowling room.

“He is loaded, that’s why. He can buy whatever the fuck he wants to.” I sort of answered myself.

“I actually don’t need it, just have it.” He took a deep breath before continuing. “See, this is where I have lived all my life, my parents owned it. Sadly, they passed away some years ago and since I’m an only child it is mine now…kinda waste of space, I know, but I just can’t sell it, too many memories in here.” Jaime explained wistfully.

I gave him a comforting smile and was about to say that I was sorry for his loss when, all of a sudden, I felt “something” climbing up my leg. I instinctively screamed and tried to shake it off, whatever it was. However, when I turned to face my leg, all I saw was an adorable little blond girl, who I assumed was 4 or 5 years old, with enormous hazel eyes, hugging my leg and crying with laughter. I honestly felt like a pussy for my overreaction; after all, Jaime had told me his cousin was staying with him.

“C’mon, she is not the one who bites here!” he exclaimed winking at me as he lifted the girl from the floor; she was still laughing.

“Okay, so…Sophie, she is my one of my new bandmates, Victor.” Jaime said smiling while pointing at me.

She?

Did he just said “she” when introducing me?

SHE!

I shoot him my death glare.

Mr. Sassy. looked quite confused… “Doesn’t he realize that I don’t have a freaking vagina?” I thought growing upset. Was I that gay?

“Hi Victor!” Sophie exclaimed. “I like you. But you look like a boy…a big boy with hair on the face.” she innocently added, laughing quietly.

“A beard, yeah!…I’ve got one because I am a man indeed.” I spoke to myself.

God bless children and their accurate perception!

“Oh, yeah… Sorry!” Jaime apologized. “You are right, Vic is a boy honey. I meant HE.” Mr. Sassy. empathized kissing Sophie's cheek.

“Hi Sophie!” I replied doing my best to fake a warm smile.

Suddenly, I was incredibly mad at Jaime for just appearing in my life. He made me fuck up everything! I was six fucking months clean of any gay sexual experience before today…

Now it was all gone.

Back to the weird looks from my brother, my male friends wanting to keep distance “just in case”, and worst of it all… back to my parents nagging me about how I was going to burn in hell and how much I disgusted them.

Jaime wasn’t worth the trouble. This…this was a one-time thing, it wasn’t like he was my boyfriend or intended to be. Period. All I felt towards him was lust…lust I wasn’t able to control and resulted in setting free my worst inner demons.

However, the truth is that I enjoyed it. Shame on me!

I loved every second of it so much that ended up here willing to bottom.

No fucking way.

I had been weak and let Jaime tempted me. Once. But not again.

Game over, Mr. Sassy. Now I was back to myself. My confident, loud, bossy self. Enough with the weird shit: men are attracted to women, women are attracted men, end of the story, like my parents would said.

“No!” I proclaimed.

~JAIME’S POV~

“No what?” I blurted confused.

Vic turned on his heels and walked towards the front door, clearly willing to leave. I put my cousin back on the floor and tried to stop the little rebel reaching for his arm.

“Hey, what are you doing? We didn’t even get started yet!” I exclaimed mildly annoyed by his moodiness.

“I…I’m leaving. Remember what I said about the “fresh start”? Well, I meant it. That was the real me coming through. The other me is the one who let you get on your knees and came here wanting more, the one used to the bad habits. Well, that last version of me is no longer available. Not now, not tomorrow, not ever. What happened between us was a mistake. I am so sorry Jaime, I don’t want this to get in the way of our band causing trouble so I’d really appreciate if you could be silent about it. It would mean a lot.” Vic said trying to sound convincing.

I got it. He was afraid of other people’s opinions. Typical. He was in the worst kind of denial, the one imposed by anyone but you. I could have tried to persuade him to stay by seducing him, and most likely succeed, but I decided against it. Vic was already too confused about what he wanted; fucking him could end up in a revelation or a complete denial disaster. Neither sounded appealing to me. I mean, I do like having the power to make people unsure about their sexual orientation, but they’ve got to figure what they want for themselves. I may push them a little but I wouldn’t force them. I wasn’t going to force Vic, even though I was horny as hell, I knew better. Moreover, I could have almost any guy I wanted to without much effort… why wasting my time with a “straight” or an incredibly confused one?

“Okay, if that’s what you want, sounds fine to me.” I replied nonchalantly. “Do you need me to drive you back?” I asked him just to be polite...Since I lived in a rather isolated place, I couldn’t see how he was going to come back by himself.

“Great.” he replied then paused to open the front door and look around for a few seconds. “Thanks, but it won’t be necessary. I have a friend who lives round here so I may as well pay him a visit.” he commented.

This little rebel’s friend was a lucky bastard.

“Oh, well…have fun and…I’ll see you soon, I guess.” I replied a little too low. Yeah, as stupid as it sounds, I didn’t want him to leave, not only because I was horny but also owing to the fact that I felt there was something special about him, something hidden in his eyes told me I was right.

My curiousness was killing me. I had to find it out, whatever it was.