Save me E.D.

Beach chap.23

I opened my eyes but soon begin to cover them because of the bright sun in my eyes. I woke up cause I heard something in my room fall, that's also something else I hate about myself, I am a light sleeper so I will wake up by gentle or soft movements or even if I hear a small noise. I looked down on the floor to see that I had dropped my phone from off my bed in my sleep. I picked up my iPhone 5, i know not the nicest phone but it's great to me and it fits in my hands perfectly cause it's not that big. I turned it on to see it light up and read the numbers 8:25. I hate how I can never sleep in the latest I have ever woken up was 9:30 I always wake up early and I hate it.

Last night Alex left and said he will be back tomorrow cause he had a meeting out of town for his YouTube career , something I don't know much about but he said it's where people post entertaining videos of themselves and sometimes he even shows me his videos. I got up feeling the cold ground touch my feet sending chills up my spine and went to grab a granola bar from under my bed. I hide a box under there so if I ever want a snack or get hungry I have something to eat. I sit back on my bed and being to eat my granola bar until I hear my phone start to ring.

I pick up my phone and read the name Ethan😕, panic rushed  into my body seeing this because I didn't know why he was calling me. I sighed then picked up the phone and said "hello" with my voice being muffled by the granola bar in my mouth."hey Gloria" he said sounding a little to happy "what's up Ethan" "well me and Grayson are going to the beach later and I was wondering if you would come with us pretty please". He sounds so excited and I didn't want to be rude so I accepted his offer"sure why not" "yesssssss" he screamed into the phone making me pull the way from my ear and chuckle "okay I will be there at 10:30 to pick you up" is the last thing I heard before he hung up. Now that I think about it a lot could go wrong, Grayson might be a jerk or even Ethan, oh god I don't want Grayson seeing my cuts, I don't even have a nice body how am I supposed to go out there almost naked, god I really should have thought this through before I agreed to this. I got up and went into the bathroom bringing my bathing suit and the clothes I would be wearing on top of that then got into the shower. While I was in the shower I tried thinking of ways I wouldn't have to take of my clothes or go into the water. Fun fact, I can not swim AT ALL and I do not plan on telling Ethan and especially grayson this because I know they will make fun of me of think I just want attention. I can't think of any way out of this but the best thing I thought of was to try and keep my clothes on as long as possible and if I have to go in the water then to not go that deep. I finished up all my shower thoughts and stepped out the shower wrapping my towel around my now cold body. After I dried my body off I put on my black bikini

Then I put on a red tank top and my shorts. I thought about straitening my hair and putting makeup on but I knew it would end up getting ruined so I just put enough foundation on to cover up my face making the sprinkle of freckles under my eyes disappear. I haven't really talked about this but I know at the start of the school year I wore light makeup but ever since things got worse I got even more insecure and Jazz taught me how to do makeup really good like Instagram level and I normally straighten my hair everyday cause I hate my curly hair. I don't even think anyone except jazz knows my hair is curly and I think she's the only one who's ever seen me without makeup. I didn't want my hair to be curly but I knew there was no point of straightening it so I just put it up in a bun and made it look like it wasn't curly. By the time I was done getting dressed it was 10:35, I sighed thinking maybe Ethan just wanted me to think he was actually taking me somewhere but maybe he really wasn't even picking me up and he wanted to make me upset or maybe he changed his mind on the way over. As I was thinking of all the possibilities that Ethan went ghost on me I felt my phone buzz in my hand. I picked it up and saw that Ethan texted me 2 minutes ago saying Ethan😕: be there in 2 minutes. after I finished reading this I heard the doorbell ring, as I made my way out of my room I looked at myself in the mirror then sighed in disappointment, I hate my body. I shut off my lights then closed my door and made my way down the stairs. I heard the door bell ring again making me walk faster. I opened the door to see Ethan with red swim shorts and a black shirt. He looked at me up and down and flashed a night adorable smile at me making me smile. He pulled me into a hug making me trip over my own feet and said "you look beautiful". I rolled my eyes and said "yeah right" then ran to the car laughing but my smile soon disappeared once I saw Grayson in the car. I turned around to look at Ethan but Ethan walked up to me and put his hand on my waist and said "hey don't worry I all ready talked to him earlier and told him that I wasn't putting up with his bullshit" "thanks eth" I said hugging him then looking up at him to see him give me a warm smile making me smile and get butterflies in my stomach. Ethan opened the door to the passenger seat for me. I sat down and put my seatbelt on while Ethan did the same. "Ethan why does she get to sit in the front this is so unfair She's tiny and I'm bigger then her" Grayson said sticking out his bottom lip while sounding like a child."sorry I didn't mean to be rude we can switch" I said looking back at Grayson smiling. Ethan put his hand on my hand and said "no I don't think so" "Ethannnnnnnnnnn" Grayson said dragging out the N in Ethan's name while rolling his eyes making me laugh. After we pulled away from the drive way Ethan gave Grayson the aux cord to make up for him sitting in the back so they were blasting kid cudi with the windows down while acting dumb making me laugh a lot. We pulled up to a McDonald's and Ethan ordered for him and Grayson. "What do you want Gloria" I looked up and said" umm just water and a medium fry please" " that's it?" He said while raising his eyebrows and. I nodded my head letting him know that's all I wanted. Ethan was paying for our food threw the drive threw and I heard Grayson say "why didn't you get more food" "I just have a really small  appetite I guess" I said giving him a slight smile. Then Ethan said "pass this to Gray please" handing me Grayson's food interrupting our short conversation. For the next thirty minutes we just ended up eating our food and blasting music until be arrived at the beach. As we all got out the car I started to get anxious to take off my clothes and go in the water. We ended up just sitting on the beach chairs for awhile and it's all ready been about 30 minutes. I felt a little relieved cause I thought maybe I wouldn't have to go in the water but while I was deep in thought I felt water being poured on my head wetting all my clothes. I looked up to see Ethan and Grayson laughing at me " Ethan why would you guys do that" I said while pouting "I'm sorry" grayson said still laughing a little. "But it's fine cause we are all going in the water anyways" I tensed up a little and said "well now I have no dry clothes so how am I supposed to get in the car unless you want me to go in a wet bathing suit" trying to change the subject "I might have some extra clothes in the car you can wear" Ethan said while smiling at me. I just rolled my eyes and laughed "come on can we please go into the water now" Grayson said whining. "Yeah come on you going whether you like it or not" "fine" I mumbled and took of my wet shorts and shirt. I looked up to see Ethan and Grayson staring at me up and down, looking flustered making me feel a little self conscious. I crossed my arms covering my stomach and said "okay can we just go now" not wanting to actually go but I'm trying to get them to not stare at me.
(Just her bathing suit again🙂)

They both nodded and took there shirts off. Now it's was my turn to stare but not for to long.

"Lets go" ethan said while dragging me into the ocean the deeper we got the more nervous I got. A big wave hit us which completely soaked me in water getting my face and hair wet. My hair was falling out of the bun so I took it out " how come I never knew you had freckles" I heard Ethan say then Grayson followed  up with " And you hair, I didn't know it was curly" " that was the point" I said laughing "why" Ethan said, they both looked a little confused "cause I don't like it" "well you should your beautiful" Ethan said giving me a warm smile making me smile I looked over at Grayson seeing his jaw clenched.

We all just played in the water for a while having fun and everything was fine. We were splashing water at each other then I heard Grayson scream "owww water got in my eye it burns" he said while fake crying which made me laugh. He stopped and looked at me going me and evil grin then said "your gunna get it " he picked me up and carried me deeper into the water making me a little scared but he was holding me so I knew I wouldn't drowned. We were at the point where the water was under Grayson's shoulders and if he set me down I wouldn't be able to stand since he's 5'11 and I'm only 5'1 and Ethan was not that far behind us. Grayson said "you ready" and started lifting me up "Grayson what are you do-" but I got cut off by him throwing me in the water. Of course I tried swimming to the top but that definitely wasn't working and I couldn't hold my breath any longer, my body tried to naturally gasping for air but only for me to swallow water and start choking underwater. I closed me eyes then I felt a big pair of hands wrap around me and pull me up. I felt cold air in my face and as soon as I was out of the water I started gasping for air trying to breath while chocking for air. Ethan started patting my back really hard making me spit out water and I regained my breath but I was still breathing heavy "oh god" I said coughing. Ethan was still holding me and I looked at him " what the fuck Grayson, are you okay" he said looking me in my eyes he pulled me into a long kiss. I know I'm still dating geo but I really don't care about his feelings and he cheats on me all the time. I looked at Grayson, He was looking at me and Ethan. "Your such a slut" he said me making my eyes water " she was fine Ethan she just wanted attention as usual why are you surprised" he said to Ethan. Ethan looked at him and shook his head "what's wrong with you" ethan said while looking at Grayson.

Ethan carried me to the shore and took me to the car and gave me one of his oversized hoodies but he didn't have any bottoms so I ended up taking off my bathing suit top of and leaving the bottoms on with Ethan's shirt on top. Grayson went to the passengers seat and slammed the door shut leaving me to sit in the back . Ethan dropped Grayson off at home and Ethan drove me home. I got out the car and saw Ethan get out and follow me "aren't you going to go home to Grayson?" I asked "no he's being a bitch" I just nodded my head and let him inside. "You can take a shower if you want to" I handed him a towel and some clothes he's left here before and let him take a shower and once he was done I took a shower and change into a Tank top and shorts while Ethan was just wearing baseball shorts. He smiled at me when she saw me walk out of the bathroom, he pulled me onto the bed with him and put some random movie on Netflix while we cuddled but while we were watching the movie I was just thinking about why Grayson is so bi-polar with me. By the time the movie was over Ethan was sleeping but I was still awake stuck in my thoughts, trust me I was so exhausted but I just couldn't fall asleep. Ethan pulled me closer to his body warming me up and cuddle my head into his chest and I just sat there in my thoughts and hoped to fall asleep soon.

A/n
I'm gunna update on Friday, I just got back from California and ocala and I had one day at my house in between both of those trips and I got back from Ocala yesterday and tomorrow I'm going to Ohio. Ohio should be a chill trip though so I will probably start updating more often since I won't be busy anymore

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Peace ✌🏽