To The BEST BOYFRIEND Ever

My New Love.. ♥️

When I got broken, I was too desperate to find new love..

But then again, I was so afraid.
Afraid to let someone in; for I convinced myself they're going to leave me anyways.
I started to build the walls; walls built with anger, despair and fear to protect my heart, myself.
I pushed people away.
I distanced myself, I isolated myself from people around me.

Funny thing happened.
You know what that was?
I fell in love with you.
I fell in love with you even before I could accomplish my goal.

Like a hurricane you came into my life without a warning.

You wreck the walls I've been trying to build intended to protect myself.
You found me in the midst of my darkest days.
You we're so patient and kind.
You know exactly what to say when anxiety hits me.
You never let me feel alone.
You became my saving grace.
You became the light I was longing to have.

Things weren't easy for us, it never was.
I pushed you away, countless of times.
I almost begged you to leave; believing that if you do as I say it would hurt less when you actually do it on your own.
But the truth is, every time I ask you to leave, a part of me is wishing you'd stay.
Every time I push you away, I'm hoping you'd pull me back and hold me even tighter than before.
And I'm glad you did.

I'm glad that even after all the pain I caused you, even after all the troubles I brought you, even after all the hard times I put you through, even after the headaches and heartaches, you never left me.

You stayed.
And that's what I ever needed; for someone to stay.

My love, I hope you know how thankful I am for having you.
I want you to know that you are my only one.

There might be a whole lot of better guys out there but please keep this in mind; I don't care.
I don't want better if it's not you.
I don't want them.
I want you and only you.
You are more than enough.

And if you ever doubt yourself, always remember that I love you no matter what.

You will always be my perfectly imperfect kind of guy.

I love you and everything about you, including your flaws.

I don't want you to be perfect because you are worth the risk even if you are the most flawed human alive.

I have you and that is more than enough.
I couldn't ask for more.

I also want you to know that my past is my past.
It's written in a stone.
It will be remembered but will never be repeated.

And as for you, you are my favorite "what was", "what is" and "what will be".
You are my incorrect concept, so stay with me.

I love you eventhough sometimes it doesn't seem so. ☺😋😘