The One You're Holding

" ...The Glore Park"

It's been two weeks since I got sick. It's been two weeks since I saw Marryan ( I am kinda happy about) and it's been two weeks since our little " journey" has begun, if you can even say it started or not.

I am currently sitting on my roof thinking about nothing.

I like to think about nothingness, it's calming. But if you are thinking  about nothing isn't that something?

Is something only said when you  aren't thinking about nothing?

I wouldn't say I am not thinking at all because that would be boring and impossible.

" What the hell am I saying?"

I said out loud. Being aware of how stupid I sounded. I began to think of something other then the topic of " nothingness​".

Adventure, uh?

You told me to always approach life with a smile and look at every negative thing in life as an adventure, a journey, to fine the positive.

But-

" Novy, get off the roof mom wants you!" I hear my dad yell. I would usually be mad at the thought interruption but I am glad to have my thoughts interrupted, it was getting too deep, not in a meaningful way but in an idiotic way.

I climbed off the roof and on to the tree. From there I reached my window and went in. I made my way to my door almost tripping on my backpack.

I need to clean my room, I almost killed myself...

I went down stairs to hear what my mom had to say.

You don't mind traveling, right?" my mom said from the kitchen.

" No, why?" I asked while sitting on the counter.

" I was wondering if you and Z wanted to spend some time with Grandpa an-"

" Nope! Count me out. I am not going and neither is Novy" Z said interrupting our mom.

" Come on kiddos it will be fun you will get to see  your..."

" I said I am not going!" Z said again not waiting his turn to talk.

" Wait....You can't tell me if I can or can't go." I said to Z realizing what he said.

" Do you want to go, do you really?" Z said getting angry.

Well, I actually have no reason to not go.

I looked down for a moment while everyone's eyes were on mines. Peering at me like if my choice would make of break this conversation. Z's eyes looked at me like how a cat looks at a rat before they catch them, calmly and sharp.

The "Adventure" you can't forget that! How will I go on it without being here?

" I have things to do at this moment of my teen life." I said feeling a little guilty to turn down a visit.

" Are you sure you don't want to see your brother and sister?" My dad said looking at us disappointingly.

" No, why should we? You guys kicked them out and now you want us to go see them?" Zeryan said starting to fume.

I sat down on our kitchen stool deciding it was best for me to stay out of it.

" Z,honey, you know your older siblings were not fit for this household" My mom said calmly while rubbing her temples.

" Oh yea, I forgot because if anyone goes against the bible or your own views on things that makes them unfit. Unfit enough to kick them out!" Zeryan voice echoed across the room