emails from me

email six.

to: lane
from: me
subject: i'm sending these, and yes, you can reply.

email six.

i told myself i'd make you a list of things to thank you for.
but my fingers would hurt far too much if i typed that much.

so i figured, you being you, would be okay with me just saying it all together.

thank you lane, thank you so much, for everything.

so, in regards to being thankful to you,
i'm going to send the emails.

but i swear to god lane, if you bombard me with emails and such telling me or asking me or ordering me to come back, i'll shut the email down and stop emailing.

of course you can send me emails back,
but damn lane don't make it harder than it needs to be.

here's the selfish part;
i want you to email me back because i miss you.

it's not fair to you.
i should leave you be.

but i can't.

i need to know how you are.

so, you can email back, but only once a day, and try to keep it to telling me things about you.
i want to know how you are, what you're doing, what everyone is up to.

i know how selfish this is of me, but i hope you'll be okay with it.

i love you.
but i still can't come back.

-me

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a/n

i hate how badly written this chapter is but hey vote bc now you know why lane hasn't been answering and now he will!!!

what do you think he'll say?

oh, and for anyone who didn't know, my instagram is @octoberdrugs, you wanna give it a follow :)

and if you need to get ahold of me, and for some reason i don't answer on here, you can reach me there!

i think i'll be updating at night for a while! sweet dreams and have try to have a great monday!