im not, me (THEO RAEKEN)

one | going back

ALEXIS POV.

He wasn't dead. he couldn't be. he was probably just waiting outside the door and getting

his and ethan's bags, probably coming up the stairs right now, bound to open the door

and come envelope me in one of his bear hugs.

so i picked myself up from the floor and let go of ethan's strong arms, wiped away my tears with

the back of my grey sweatshirt and whispered to him

"he's not dead. ethan. you're wrong" as i looked him dead in the eye, all i was getting in return

was a look he was giving me, sad and broken.

"look, i don't know what kind of sick prank this is, but he's not dead, okay? he can't be.

he's. not. dead." i repeated, more to myself than to ethan.

"come here" he extended his arms and reached out to me, but i quickly took my arm away

and started down the noisy stairs, each one whispering "he's not here, he's not coming back"

and tears blurred my vision my head shaking back and forth as i started screaming,

"NO! NO! NO!" i yelled, so loud my throat burned and my lungs ached, he wasn't coming

back. ever. and with those words i slumped on the ground, feeling my brothers large hands on

my back and carefully, picking up my limp and exhausted boy and placing it on my bed,

covering me with my soft blankets as tears continued to go down my clothed eyes and i

felt the bed sink and ethane hot breath on my neck.

"its gonna be okay" he whispered.

"how?"

"i just know it'll get better. you're stronger than this"

"it hurts, though, it hurts so much" i barely made out before blacking out into a painful sleep.

- time skip bitches -

I woke up from my sleep, and slowly
Took Ethan's arm off my shoulder and got up, standing barely on my trembling legs and sighing, feeling

Absolutely lost and empty inside. I made my way to the bathroom and washed my face, splashing it with

The freezing water, cooling my skin and washing away the sleep, but not the pain.

I looked up from the sink and into the small mirror I had in front of me and almost yelled in surprise when I found out my eyes were, purple?

I blinked furiously, and they returned to their normal color. I gripped the edges of the sink till my knuckles turned

White, and I let go, turning the door knob and opening the door slowly, my eyes already drooping, pain overtaking

My body and filling my heart. Ethan was sitting down on the edge of my bed and looked at me dead in the eye when

He saw me at the door.

"They killed him" he said, bluntly.
"What?"
"They killed him"
"Yeah you said that, Ethan. What do you mean by they killed them?" I looked at him questioning his words,

Furrowing my brows and turning my head to the side as I slowly walked towards him, my limbs barely moving

The weight of my small body. I sat down next to him, grabbing his cold hand and putting it into mine.

"They, they killed him. Right in front of me, I should- I should have been there I-" he choked out, tears filling his blue eyes.

"Hey, hey" I whispered.

"Look at me, Ethan? It's not your fault. Whoever let him get killed, it's not you. Okay? But I need to know one thing, who really killed Aiden?"

It hurt to say his name, but I wanted to know. I needed to know.

"The Oni, they stabbed him-they,- he just wanted to protect us." He barely choked out.

"You need to go, back to beacon hills, you need to figure out everything that's happening- please" he begged. Staring into my eyes

Boring into them, pleading, and I understood, assenting my head and looking deeply into his ocean colored eyes.

"Tell me everything" I asked him. "I need to know everything, about werewolves and whatnot, I-I need to know"

And that's when it all started.