im not, me (THEO RAEKEN)

nine | deeply in love

a/n change in pov finally haha x

THEO'S POV

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i was angry. so angry. who does she think she is? running around here, being all new and shit

and getting everything because she's the twins' sister. i don't get it. how can she be so fucking

hot and make me so mad by watching her?

i trudged angrily towards nowhere, walking along random roads, kicking at stones and letting

out puffs of air as i walked.

couldn't she see i was into her? i thought it was pretty obvious by the way i treated her.

it made me furious to see her on the field tonight, earning the looks from all of the guys when

the only one who should be looking at her should be me. it kills me knowing she'll never

be mine and probably fall in love with a guy like stiles, what a dick.

"arggh!" i grabbed my hair in distress. it was all her fault. coming here, i had one purpose.

to destroy scott and gain power. not fall in love with some girl who's brother used to be friends

with the enemy! we don't even know what kind of supernatural creature she is.

i flopped down on an old park bench and sighed loudly. i hated her but loved her at the same

time. how is that possible? she makes me want to abandon all my work,  she makes me want

her so bad in so many ways. she makes me want to lose my mind but its okay if the reason is

her. but i can't, i need to stay strong, but thats impossible too.

i ran my hand through my hair impatiently, deciding on what to do.

do I keep acting like a jerk to her so I can hide my feelings in order for her

to never know? Or do I tell her and face rejection. I went with being a jerk,

because I knew I didn't deserve her, and that made the most furious.

everyone has someone, I should be the one to hold her but I can't have her to

myself. I guess I'll have to live with that, because Scott called another pack

shit meeting in invited to which I assume Alexis will attend. Fantastic.

The crazy things I'd do for her. For love.

Cause deep down inside me, i do love her in such little time. I've been

watching her, observing her every precious move, her beautiful smiles

and eyes. I was so deeply in love with her and didn't know what to do about it.