im not, me (THEO RAEKEN)

eleven | theo

Alexis POV:

what the hell? what did i turn into? why are my friends on the ground?

i spun around confused, to see deaton, styles and scott behind me with terrorized eyes.

i gasped and let out a sob, grabbing desperately onto something as i watched the rest

of the pack slowly come to and i stared in shock, what have i done?

i turned to look at lydia, who jumped as i lifted my hands to look at them in confusion.

"i did this?" i asked her

"all of it" she cautiously answered. her normally sweet voice turning hoarse and bare.

i gulped, and i stuttered as i tried to attempt an apology

"i-im so, i dont, i coudnt control, im so sorry, so so sorry" 

i lost control and with a sob, i turn and ran for the door, my legs limply dragging behind me.

the outside was crisp, and i could feel the leaves under my vans as i ran to anywhere really,

my house was too far and my bike was at school, so i headed to the woods and once i found 

a decent tree i slid my back down and sat on the wet ground and sobbed. i sobbed and cried

till i had no more tears left. how could i become something so destructive? i coudnt bare to

put my friends in danger. i was tired of people getting hurt. i remembered aiden as i touched the 

glass bottle on my necklace, that held the last of his ashes. 

"i miss you, aiden" i whispered. and curled into my side, clutching my stomach with my hands

and crying until i could cry no more and fell into a deep, cold sleep.

"alexis. alexis! alexis, wake up. please" i heard, a husky voice calling to me somewhere.

i opened my heavy eyes and my vision came to focus on an attractive boy about my age. 

the sun shined on his light caramel hair, and i guessed it was morning of the next day.

"alexis? oh thank god i thought you were dead" 

at that i knew exactly who it was. 

"theo?" i attempted to get out, my voice hoarse and sore.

"yeah, i was, um ,in the woods and saw, you, i got so scared" he touched my bare arm and 

cupped the side of my face with his other hand.

i jumped and shivered from his touch as i gently took his hands away from my body and

watching his face twist in confusion.

'whats-"

"why are you touching me, theo?"

was this the same boy who hated me and pushed me around, made me cry and made my life

half miserable?

"i,i didnt realize, im sorry" he stuttered, his blue eyes facing the floor as his hand raced up to 

the back of his neck, flexing and showing off his large muscles.

"i need to go, theo" i said, more sure now.

"what? alexis no, let me take you home" he tried to stop me as i slowly stood up and fixed my 

shirt

"im fine. thanks." i coldly answered the boy i uncontrollably loved. i coudnt let his cute antics

get to me, later he'll probably use that to go out with some other girl and break my heart,

i could not be vulnerable.

i watched his heartbroken face as i turned once more, running away from everything that was 

affecting me. how much longer could i do that?

THEO POV:

she ran away from me as i yearned to touch her soft hands. why did she do that?

i sighed and kept watching the same spot where i saw her beautiful body laying

down next to the tree.

i wanted to hold her, to let her know how much i loved her, to touch her and let her

know how much she was mine. 

i was determined to let her know and i huffed, running and hand through my hair.

id keep being mean until the feeling went away, i resolved. at least i hope it would

go away.