I tried to carry on

To live and bleed

"Sam get the fuck off of him" Dean screams as he kicks Sam in the side.

"You didn't do the tests Dean" scolds Sam.

"About that" I say lightly.

"What are you, Cas is dead, you can't be Cas, his wings are roasted right there" Sam says pointing at what were my wings.

"Do all the tests you want, it's me, it's Cas" I state.

Sam takes a silver knife and cut my forearm "Angels don't bleed"

"Im not an angel, you dumbass" I say already annoyed "That hurts Sam"

"You're not an angel?" Dean says.

"I'll explain everything, but first Im really fucking hungry. Can we go eat?" I ask.

"Yeah" says Dean, obviously was trying to understand what was happening.

I get in the impala with Dean and Sam drives the truck in front of us.

"Dean? What's wrong?" I stare at him knowing something's up.

"I just never thought Id see you again. Id never think you'd be human. I never thought about you dying before..." Dean sobs.

I love closer to he and say "Im here, Im alive, and yeah Im human but Im your human. Do you not like me now that Im human?"

"Cassy, I wouldn't care if you were a fucking Death himself. I would still love you, if one touch killed me, it would be worth it." He looks me dead in the eye and then I look down.

He softly grabs the side's of my face and lifts my face upward so our head are about even. "Hey. Cassy. There is nothing, absolutely nothing, that would drive me away from you. I love you, baby I love you" Dean smiles and gives me a soft miss on the forehead.

He starts the engine and before we pull off he pulls me closer and I put my head on his shoulder. "Nobody's going to hurt you as long as Im around Cassy. Nobody." Dean whispers as he starts to drive.

I fell asleep on his shoulder.

"Cassy, baby, Cassy wake up. We're getting close to a dinner. Aren't you hungry?" Dean whispers in my ear.

"Ugh, I hate waking up" I wine.

"This is the first time in years that you have taken a nap. How do you know you hate waking up?" Dean askes.

"Because my vessel aches, Dean, every inch of it." I wine.

"Okay. A. You are human know so call it your body and not your vessel. B. No wonder your body hurts, you've been gone for months. Im sorry Cassy but you gotta learn Human 101." says Dean.

"Yeah pull over here" I say pointing at the gas station. When I jumped out I turned and said "I'll be right back"

Inside I get body wash, shampoo, deodorant, a razor, and, for later, a box of condoms.

I hide the condoms in my jacket packet before I leave the has station.

When I get in the car I give the bag to Dean and say "sorry babe, but you smell."

Sam pulls up to the truck stop and sits on the impala with me. "Sorry I had to air up my tire, it was getting low." He says

"It's okay Sam, I told Dean to take a shower." I say.

"You realize the last time he took a shower, was when he was past out and I bathed him myself. It was a week after his last attempt... " he said.

"I was there, I woke you up that night, from the other side of the veil" I say.

"You woke me up the last time he tried to kill himself?" he said.

"I did it many times" I say.

"Damn, thanks I guess" he says.

"Don't mention it. I was also there the night he got drunk and walked around in DcMartin's and boxers. That I will mention." I say.

"I missed that one" he said

"Be glad you did, he was walking around saying something about how 'trees are just like people' it was pretty bad." I say.

"Oh, Im glad" he laughs while scratching his head.

Dean walks out of the truck stop with wet hair and a shaved face. He's Dean again.

"Feel better" I ask.

"I feel good" he says "good enough to do this.

He walks up to me and grips my waste. He kisses me softly on the lips and I melt. When he pulls away he looks at Sam, who is sitting there with his mouth open. Dean spits "Got a problem?" Sam shakes his head.

"Who wants to eat?" asks Dean walking toward the dinner.

When we get inside a hostess shows us to the table and gives up menu's.

"Cassy, you were going to tell us what happened?" asks Dean.

"Yeah, Chuck was there when I got to my grave. He said he was either going to take me to heaven or bring me back. I begged him to bring me back."

"Why'd he bring you back as human?" asks Sam.

I look down and say "Because I asked him to."

"Cassy..." Dean says.

I glare up and hiss "You and Sam are the only reason I wanted to come back. I don't want to live after that. I don't want to stay young. You are going to get old and I don't want to look like this for the rest if your life. I want to get old with you. I want to be like you. I want to know what it's like to have a purpose."

"Cassy, come here" Dean says softly. I move closer to him and he grips me close. He whispers in my ear "I love you. You've always had a purpose. I don't care if you age or not. Being human is simply being able to love. You loved me before did you?" I nod my head "see you were human. I love you, Cassy. Human or not." He kisses me on the forehead. "I love you, Cassy."

I pull away and add "He brought back Gabe, too."