I'm Not Sorry

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Trigger Warnings: Swearing, Insults

Eliza's POV

I gripped Alexander's hand as we sat on the hospital bench. "You were right to bring him to the hospital." I told him, but his eyes still did not meet my own.


"I shouldn't have fought him." Alex whispered, tears rolling down his cheeks. "Of course you should have! He attacked me-" I began, then that same thought came to my head.


'You never loved me' I thought again. I let go of his hand and sighed. "But, you probably wouldn't care." I said.


Alex grabbed my hand again. He squeezed it tightly. "Will you marry me, Eliza? I don't have a ring or anything, I didn't expect to do this right now...but I just can't be just your boyfriend. I want a life with you, Eliza! I want us to be happy. I don't care about John! I love you! " Alex said, the smile on his face was enough to make me melt.


I was helpless for him, I loved him. "Alex, o-of course!" I stammered, tears stinging my eyes. I could finally feel like I was protected! I love him so much. I kissed him right there, in front of an elderly couple.


John's POV


"So, Mr.Laurens, you aren't hurt very badly. Just a few bruises, and you're fine to go home now. Just get some good rest." The doctor advised, leaving the room and letting Eliza and Alexander in.


My heart skipped a beat as I saw him. But when I saw him glare back into my lust-filled eyes with nothing but hatred in his eyes, I gulped. "Hello, John." Eliza grumbled, rolling her eyes.


There was the rage again. Why do I do that? I need anger management...


"Oh, yeah! Roll your eyes you fucking bitch, but that won't make Alexander love you! You're the ugliest human being I've ever seen on this planet Earth!" I snapped, spitting onto the floor.


Eliza scoffed and chuckled. "Let me just say, Alexander loves me. He just asked me to marry him, we're engaged. As for the second part, it seems you're just a bit defensive, I'd talk about your looks but it might get offensive." She retorted.


Alexander clapped at what Eliza said, but all that mattered was what she said at first. 'Married?' I thought.


All of what I wanted...gone. Was it because of my own doings that this happened? What if I acted faster? What if I hadn't attacked Eliza? What if I hadn't confessed that day?


"Married?" I said in disbelief. It had to be just a lie, right? Or a joke.


"Yeah, married John. So why don't you go fuck your Alex body pillow you stalker." Eliza said with another eye roll. I closed my eyes and sighed, letting myself sink into the land of dreams.


There I could feel safe and happy, and maybe just try and forget Alex. Handsome, smart, brave, loyal Alex....



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