Poems (:

Sweet to Your Ears

I wish I had the inspiration,

To write a poem that's like love to your ears,

But frankly, I haven't gotten any inspiration,

Besides these wretched feelings inside of me.

I wish I could find a way to make you proud of me again,

Put a simple smile on your face.

I've lost all hope in humanity and I lost myself.

You're right here, but how come I don't feel your presence?

I was cold and I opened my heart,

Letting go of all the lies I filled myself with,

And just as I suspected I'm left feeling colder.

But now I've got no comfort.

Atleast before I had sinful pleasures.

A deathly cycle of letting them consume me,

Then regretting the thought of me even existing.

What have I let this come to?

I've tried everything.

I thought I have atleast?

Unless I'm doing something wrong..

Maybe my ears are closed and my heart is closed off again?

I think I'm scared.

I'm scared of losing everything,

Because I already lost half of my life when I let those things go.

I gave them to you and I gave myself up.

I surrendered,

But somehow I don't think that'll ever be good enough.

I'm back in this misery pit,

And it's pathetic.

Because I know I'll be fine in a few months if I can just hold on.

But right now,

This temptaion is pulling me.

And it won't stop.

I've tried talking to you,

But are you even listening?

Have you lost faith in me too?

Am I just another lost cause?

I need someone.

But no one has got the understanding that you would.

Pull me back into your embrace,

Please.

I'm begging you, please.

Save me.

Embrace me,

Love me,

Hold my hand again.

What ever happen to. "I'll never leave your side."?

Lord, I've lost it, haven't I?

I just need you.

But I can't seem to see or feel you anymore.

I feel so empty,

So alone.

It's hurting again.

But I guess I deserve this punishment.

This regret,

This temptation,

This pain,

It's all to make me stronger.

It's just going to bend and break me.

So I deserve this.

Maybe this will teach me never to play with the fire of sin again.

I'm sorry,

I'm sorry for being a disappointment;

For screwing up so badly,

That I thought it was okay to push you away.

I'm so sorry.

Please let me come back to you..