(Warrior Cats)SmokeTrail's fire

Chapter 7- Now I'm Crazy

I sat with Goldeneyes in the warriors den. It was super hot, and I was panting in exaustion.

Hopekit was more alert now that she was somewhat older.

However she was still a bit confused. Because of her sisters lack of experience and her sickness, I had practically spoiled emberkit, but now since splitkit was dead, and hopekit was slightly disabled, I had spoiled her more, but then hopekit started bing more active, so she started to hit her and be mean to her and treat the poor thing like a slave.

And I couldn't do a thing about it because they were too troublesome. Plus I'm not sure what to do about it. Anyway. Goldeneyes is still furious over splitpaw's death, and was going crazy over the thought of getting revenge.

I was too, but I had kits to take care of. My thoughts were interrupted by arguing. It was the kits.

I rushed to the nursery, from the warriors den to see hopekit and emberkit fighting

"hey, get off of me!"hopekit begged

"no! This is for what you did!"emberkit hissed back.

The larger kit was on top of the other, tearing at her body, leaving most of her limbs limp "please...! I didn't mean to....I didn't mean to!"hopekit yowled helplessly. I heard a snap and she screeched.

Emberkit's eyes were blank, her expression dark. She had just broke her sister's leg and didn't care. Actually, I don't know if she cared or not.

"Goldeneyes!"I screeched, running back to my mate, dragging him to the nursery where he looked on in horror as more snapping sounded, with the harsh movements emberkit forced on her sister.

At last Goldeneyes ripped her away from hopekit, as the little kit laid helplessly on the ground and I rushed to her side "hopekit? C-can you move?"I stammered,

"Mommmyyyyy..,"she cried "it hurts....it really hurts!"she cried.

"I know....mommy's here, just don't cry, its OK..."I soothed, but she kept screaming.

I looked at Goldeneyes and sakurabloom. After a moment  I cried into my daughter's pelt. While I hadn't been paying attention she had passed so quickly.

I cried

And cried

And cried.

All night.

Grieving for my other lost kit. I pushed everyone away.
Emberkit apologized until she lost her voice, but I was so overcome by hatred that she killed her sister.....

That I murdered her....I choked her to death.

"Goldeneyes...."I began, but my mate would not speak to me. He was ignoring me. "I want to ask you something...." I meowed meekly,

"What now?"he hissed.

"I want to ask about having more kits...."I mewed. He agreed. But every time something would happen.
Stillborns,Getting sick.
Starclan was torturing me.

Then one day, we were given some grim information from sakurabloom "if you two keep trying for kits, your bodies won't be able to regenerate cells to have kits. I think that smoketrail might become infertile, and Goldeneyes, you might be unable to provide for a while, there's only one way to fix this.."She meowed "whats that?"came from my mouth for some reason.

Sakurabloom asked me to step out for a while, so I did.

I went into the warriors den and was about to fall asleep when I felt foxflame lay next to me, I opened my eyes and met his. He licked tears off my face that I hadn't noticed that I'd been crying.

"Shh, it'll be ok, just relax."he purred. I sighed in response.

Foxflame stood over me and that was that.

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afterwards I was exausted but I didn't mind. I got up and headed back to the medic den where I thought my mate and sakurabloom would be.

They were still there, but as I watched, I saw my nightmare unfold.

Sakurabloom was in a crouch, but Goldeneyes refused. I thought it was fine until she lifted her tail, expelling a strong scent.

Goldeneyes couldn't resist heat.

So that was the end of that.

Full of anger I burst in "what in the darkforest is going on here!?" I snapped, tears already running down my face as my eyes showed fury.

Goldeneyes jumped back in surprise, and sakurabloom laid down, putting her tail between her legs.

"Well!?"I hissed.

No response.

Sakurabloom ignored me.

My mate was looking super flustered, and looking far more guilty than the she-cat. I couldn't even imagine what was going on in her mind

And I hated her, and stormed out.

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That night it stormed, an I refused to speak with anyone once again.

Goldeneyes Came up to me, looking me in the eyes "I'm sorry.,.I didn't know this was going to happen..."he apologized, licking my face.

I turned away from him, then felt his rough tongue on my neck "don't be like that..."he purred, settling down next to me. "Just because they died, doesn't mean our love has to die with it..."he purred.

I looked at him and smiled faintly.

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In the morning I woke up early to speak with flashstar who greeted me with a smile. Wavepaw, and roughpaw were sitting there as well, hanging out with each other happily.

I dipped my head to her "good morning."I meowed.

"Hello, smoketrail."she purred. I saw her face give off the expression of pain but she stayed quiet.

"What's wrong?"I asked.

"My...kits!"she gasped.

I nodded, and rushed off, getting sakurabloom and bringing her back to flashstar.

It was basically a bloodbath. Flashstar wouldn't, I mean couldn't, be quiet.

There was blood everywhere.

Most kits were born, bloody and dead. One survived though.

Flashstar was dying. She lost a lot of blood during her kitting and was still bleeding. She struggled for breath. Woth her last breaths she managed to speak only slightly. She named the bloody, living kit.

Peachkit.

That was the name she murmured before her heartbeat skipped a beat, continued, stopped,

....and never beat again.