The doorbell ringing woke me up. I yawned as I got out of bed while sliding on my slippers. I put my robe on and went downstairs in Halo and I condo.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"Ya daddy." Blue says with a laugh.
I rolled my eyes and opened the door.
"Good morning." I say wit a smile while Blue comes in and closes the door for me as he hands me a bag of food I'm hoping.
He kisses me. "Good morning." He sits on the couch after he took his shoes off and put his feet on the table. "Where is Baby Blue?"
I moved his feet off the table and sat next to him. "She met a friend next door. She spent the night over there." I opened the bag and it was breakfast. I began eating.
"You missed me?" Blue asked licking his lips.
"Of course... not." I joke.
He rolls his eyes at me. "Whatever."
So I know I said I was moving on but how could I? I like my family right now. Blue opens up more but I guess I haven't been. He says I don't say I love him as much he does. It's not like we ever made anything official. As of now he's only the father of my daughter and I'm only the mother of his daughter, who occasionally has sex with each other.
"How was your week?" I ask just trying to make conversation.
"It could've been better. If I spent it with my wife and kid." Blue says looking at me as I eat but only for a second then he looked back at the TV.
He's been throwing these signs for a long time. They started on my 18th birthday 2 months ago. I wanted to know why.
"You keep saying that." Was all I could think to say.
"That's because I mean it. We'll be married one day when you stop playing games. I made some mistakes like not keeping you when I had you. But I'm over that, I know what I want and I'll wait if I have to. I still need you to know that your mine, Halo stuck us together."
I laugh. "Shut up. You just start saying anything."
"But I meant it tho." Blue says us now making eye contact.
"So why are you still single?" I ask.
"Obviously that's what you want. The way I see it I'm not single. I already told you what I wanted. If you expect for me to beg or plead... I might. But if you wanted to be in a real relationship with me you would show it. I don't want you to do anything you don't want to do."
"I want what you want." I start, finally about to say what I've been thinking. "But I don't want to be hurt. I'm not saying you have hurt me but for future references. I do love you. I thank you for Halo, I want us to be together."
Blue pulled me to him and kissed me. He broke the kiss and just held me. "Thank you for saying it. I won't hurt you Rae. But you hurt me. When you kept Halo from me..." I cut him off.
"And I apologized for that." I stood up pacing the floor. "I was young and so we're you. We weren't even in a relationship. We were not ready to be parents. I need you be honest Blue. If I would have told you I was pregnant, what would you have said?" I ask looking in his eyes.
"Honestly, something that would have hurt your feelings. Something I would be apologizing for today. I understand your reasoning and its fine. I amend you for what you did. You raised Halo to be a smart girl regardless if she was with you or not. I'm sorry that I gave you a reason not to tell me. I just want us to move on."
"Fine. Moving on." I said looking at my nails.
"Are you mad?" Blue ask getting up and coming to comfort me. He held me close to him.
