random things about me

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Hi guys, I haven't fully introduce myself mostly, because I like my privacy. But, drum-roll please, this Chapter is Random things about me. Whoop , well if you care to know me at all. ok 

1) full name: Melissa Araceli Elvira 

2)favorite color: Imperial purple 

3)Age: .....15

4) birthday: September 27 2001

5) I love to draw

6) I learn to knit and crochet 

Basic, right ? ok now personal stuff 

I'm a independent, strong, unique, believer,dreamer, positive young woman. 

Race? Does it matter?  for those who care, i'm Mexican and I'm proud to be.

I can be positive but there is days that i question Why am I here? i get so angry at myself: my body for being too chubby, for having a secret  that disappoint my family, not able to make my parent proud, for being myself. there are times that i think "Will they miss me?". But my mother, i love my mom and i know she be heartbroken, i live for my mother, I live to make her proud, happy, and laugh. Then I realize "no, i shouldn't think like this. I was made for a reason" 

My self-esteem is so low, I don't have confidence in myself , I compare myself with my family members who achieve a lot more, also my family may be joking about my body but now i can't even look at myself at the mirror because all i see is a blob. My personality change to outgoing. fun girl to to a shy, boring, weird, girl . Why did it change? because School , it all started in 5th grade, i was call Mute girl, in the bus , Fat ass and Bitch. in home i was surrounded with love but in school, i step in another world  and i had no idea what i was going into. 

well that all guys, i have to stop because I'm close to tears , so, byeee...       

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