Love never ends okay. Love sucks. For me it does anyways. Matt left me. Told me to go and fuck myself. Accused me on cheating for no reason. He just said he wanted to leave me for a reason. Not because he wanted to fuck other girls.
I've been distraught. Depressed i guess. I lie in bed and look at the ceiling. Think of how Matt and I could be a great couple. We could have a family even.
I cry a lot now. Its become a natural thing. I have really changed. I have gone back to drugs. Selling them also. I run into Matt on the job at times. Hes always with a different girl.
I hated to see him. I want to punch him and tell him i hate him. I also want to fuck him and hug him and kiss him. I was lonely.
School was ending snd Wyatt was so in love with his girlfriend. I had no one. My foster parents were too busy packing my things for me to move into my new apartment soon.
I tried to be happy. I tried to smile more. All i have are tears and frowns. Lonely times are the worst. I havent felt like this since i was kicked out of my foster home for fucking Stephen.
I wish Stephen was here. To stab me and kill me. I want to die. I dont want to be here. I wasnt even excited to go to the college i have wanted.
I went to the abandoned park a lot. I ran into a girl there the other day. She freaked when she saw me and ran off. I was confused. No one else came here.
I sat down on the bed one last time before i moved out into my own apartment. I had my phone open and my finger hovering Matt's contact. I was too much of a pussy.
I finally hit it. It rang and rang until he finally answered.
"Uh, hello?"
"I-I need help."
"Why?"
"I want to die, Matt."
"No. Shush im coming over."
"I miss you. I miss us."
"Im coming over stay right where you are."
"You dont miss me do you, Matt?"
"Listen, Angel, Im almost there."
"Please. I need you."
"I just arrived come let me in."
I got up and hung up. I opened the door and i sobbed when i saw him. He wrapped his lanky yet muscular arms around me. He felt soft and loving.
I needed this. This was what i craved. Love. Love was what i needed. I kissed him as soon as he stopped hugging me.
He kind of jerked away when i did it. I was hurt.
"I-Im sor-" i couldnt even finish before i was slammed against a wall and his lips were on mine.
He took off my shirt and i took his off. He kissed my neck and lead me over to my bedroom. He slammed me against my bed and he was really turning me on.
This was what i needed. I needed Matt. I needed him to fuck me, love me, give me hugs, and tell me he loved me.
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I was happy to be back with Matt. We were two weeks strong since he came over. I was in my new apartment now. I stopped drugs again. He didnt though. He never did.
I was happy to be in my favorite college again.
I was happy to be Angel.
My name is Angel and Im okay with that.
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