2. | LAST SUMMER [THE SANDLOT]

chapter ten

IMPORTANT MESSAGE AT THE BOTTOM - PLEASE READ

"i don't want to keep being the girl that keeps crying about the same thing."

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My heart broke seeing them there, it hurt. There was the hollow pain in my chest as I witness them give each other multiple pecks on their lips. Something me and Benny did after he had said something that made me mad. I'd turn my back on him and give him the silent treatment. Thought those never really lasted long seeing as Benny's puppy dog eyes were my weakness. The most it would last a whole day and at the end of the day, I'd forgive him and we'd lay in bed sharing kisses that weren't shared earlier.

But not only had I felt heartbroken seeing them there, I felt angry. There are certain things that you are allowed to lie about but lying to someone's face, claiming that you love them was not acceptable. I'd rather be the girl that watches her best friends date multiple girls even though I loved him then be taken advantage of and lied to.

All those kisses we shared— fake. All those 'I love you's'— fake. The whole 'soulmates' shit— FAKE! It was all fake. What I don't get is the point of this all. Why say you love just to go behind my back and cheat? Why tell me that we are 'practically soulmate' but then switch up on me with some girl you claim as a childhood friend? Why?

It's stupid! He's stupid!

"What the hell?!" All the boys exclaimed, making Chloe and Benny jump up from the hammock. They continued to yell very hurtful things towards Chole and Benny but they weren't fazed.

"Really, Benny?" I narrow my eyes on him. The boys quit their yelling, glancing back at me with sorrowful eyes. I stared into his eyes with nothing but hate.

"Luna—"

"Why?" I interrupted him. He was caught off guard with that question, his eyes furrowed in confusion.

"Why what?"

"Why date me if you were just going to run back to her? Why tell me you love when you really don't? Why tell me that I'm your first love when apparently I'm not? Why tell me all this shit when it's not real?" I continued to question. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I continued to glare at him.

"I-I don't- I don't know." Benny fumbled with his words. Everyone rolled their eyes.

"All this time. All this time I've been in the hospital, what were you doing? Swapping spit with Chloe. All those times I was in the hospital, I wasn't even worried about my health. I was worried about you. All I could think about was you—"

"He wasn't think about you at all." Chloe butted in.

My head snapped towards her with a glare. "Obviously, you whore. You know what, I don't care anymore. Go ahead and fool around with Chloe. Go ahead and ruin us. Go ahead because now, you mean nothing to me. I always went out of my way for you. I put you before me and before anyone else. Because I loved you. But obviously that wasn't enough. You broke me completely.

I haven't felt this much pain since my dad left. I thought I'd never be able to feel like this because of you. You made me feel alive. You made me love life again. But I guess you could make me hate just as fast. I hate you, Benny Rodriguez. Don't ever speak to me again, don't look at me, and don't think about me. Because I'm done."

And with that, I walked away. Usually I would be having the boys push me in a wagon on the at home but I didn't want to be near anyone. Since I couldn't walk all the way home without passing out, I eventually made it to the liquor store around the corner. I walked in, getting weird looks from people seeing as I had a breathing tube in my nose. I went straight to the front desk.