Unwanted wife
Chapter 02: SuicideI knocked on Jungkook's room. We don't share the same room since he hates my scent and his mood changes when he sees my face.
"Come in" I heard behind the door so i grabbed the door knob and turned it. Jungkook is getting ready for his work. He's the CEO of Bighit company and he's been running the company for a decade.
"I made your lunch" I gently placed the lunch box on his table.
Jungkook's wearung his shoes at the moment, his hair is still wet and uncombed and his neck tie untied.
"I don't need that" He murmured as he stood up as he choose a bag that he's gonna use for this day from his cabinet.
"Minsuk told me to cook it for you" I said nervously, hoping rhat he would accept my effort.
"You know I'm not going to eat that, just tell him I liked it" He said, his eyes fixed on transferring his stuffs into his bag.
Wow! That was a big pang in my chest! tears are starting to form in my eyes. His words feel like knives that keeps stabbing my heart.
I pursed my lips and nodded slowly "Okay" I mumbled as I swallowed the truth. Why do I keep pushing myself to him? Why can't he appreciate every effort that I make for him?"Do you want anything?" I asked him trying to build up a conversation. After not seeing him for a month I miss him and I want to hear his voice more.
Finally, He looked at me but with blank eyes. "I want you to get out of my room" he said nonchalantly
"I-I forgot, sorry" I said as I touched my chest because it hurt like hell. It was beating so slow like I'm gonna die for the next seconds caused by the words that escaped from Jungkook's lips that stabbed my heart so hard.
I slowly made my way towards the door. I looked up to prevent tears from escaping my eyes.
As soon as I got out of his room, tears flowed down from my eyes nonstop. I'm so mad at myself. I look like stupid, crying all the time.
Why can't i just be like him? Like a cold hearted one? Why can't i just be emotionless?
I went to my room to take a bath.I filled the tub with water and planned to drown myself to death and forget this pain inside this chest.
I end up crying again because I don't know what to do in order to stop this heartache. There is just one thing that my mind was whispering and that was to hurt myself.
"You're so tired of crying Jimin, please stop it already" I sigh as I pulled my hair as hard as I can while tears drop onto the water continuously.
"WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS!?" I yelled as I punched the water in the tub, my voice echoed inside the room.
"Jimin just die" i muttered with my gritted teeth. My hand is holding the blade tightly, causing it to tremble I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
Jungkook is going to be happy when he finds me inside this bathroom lying and not breathing. I'm sure he's gonna be able to smile again.
Oh, I want that to happen.
I closed my eyes as I slighty pressed the blade on my pulse.
You want to see Jungkook to smile right? Then kill yourself.
I smiled at that thought. My hands are trembling. I pressed the cutter even more harder. The moment I saw blood flowing out of it I got scared and threw the cutter somewhere inside this bathroom.
Fuck, I can't do it. Does that mean I also can't make Jungkook smile?
I ran where my blade is and placed it again on my wounded pulse. Bloof is still flowing. I pictured Jungkook smiling that gained my energy.
I want to see the old Jungkook so I have to kill myself.
"Kill yourself Jimin, please kill yourself so Jungkook can be happy. He's going to laugh and smile when he sees you dead" I whispered to myself and laughed like a crazy person.
I was about to cut myself when the door suddenly opened, showing a scared Minsuk.
"M-mommy!" Minsuk screamed which made Jungkook rushed into my room.
I froze. "Daddy! Mommy has blood all over h-his bod---"
Before Minsum could finish his sentence I gave the both of them my sweetest smile as I slowly closed my eyes.
Jungkook please smile
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Unwanted Wife • Jikook Fanfic
Fanfiction"I call myself his babysitter rather than his wife" Date started: April 08,2017 Date ended: April 14, 2021