Unwanted Wife • Jikook Fanfic

03: He only needs you

"J-Jungkook, i know this isn't the right time but---" I paused for a second to see his face. His eyes are half-opened but he's still smiling. He's drunk after getting busted for the nth time

"Am i that ugly Jiminnie?" he suddenly asked as he wrapped his hands around my shoulder.

I pushed him "Whoa! That hurts!" he gave me a puzzled look, tilting his head and raising his right eyebrow but he still gave me this bunny smile

I pursed my eyes tightly "I LIKE YOU JUNGKOOK" I shouted. I know it's too late but i want him to know my feelings for him before i move on

I opened my eyes to see his serious face "Jimin, you know I can't love you back, sorry"

I know.
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I rubbed my eyes using the back of my hands to adjust my visions. I knew i was not in my room when i saw this unfamiliar decorations. I turned my head on my right to see that picture. It's the picture of Jungkook with her wife.

I sat up quickly when noticed that i was resting inside Jungkook's room
"what happened?" I asked myself, trying my best to remember what had happened.

My eyes went down to my wrist to see that it is already wrapped up with bandage.

"Go to your room now" I jumped on my seat when I heard Jungkook's voice coming out of nowhere.

"Why Jungkook?" I asked him nervously as tears starts to form in my eyes. I want to have a serious answer behind this. I knew he was the one who cured my wound. Why didn't he just let me die?

"Stop imagining things. I didn't saved your life because I wanted to" He sighed as he rolled his eyes sidewards. I know

"Be thankful to minsuk" he added. His answer helped me to do suicidal things. Everything in me feels so broken. My throat feels so dry, i'm so speechless. His words just hurts me so bad.

"You should have let me die there" I whispered but loud enough for him to hear it.

"Yeah, I hope I did" when he said those words the tears that i was holding back went out non-stop. Fuck! Why does this hurt so bad? What did I do wrong? I did everything that I can, I even sacrifice everything that i have. What else should i do for him to feel my love?

why are you like that Jungkook? You're talking like I don't have feelings. I'm trying my best to act like your wife yet you're being like that treating me like a piece of shit.

and why am i so weak? I keep crying infront of him? Can't you just accept it? He only needs you, he doesn't love you

I stared at him and forced a smile
"Tell me Jungkook, what should I do for you to be happy?" I asked him while wiping my tears with the back of my hand.

"You don't need to ask"

"Can I ask if there is still a chance?, if there is---"

"you already know the answer, Jimin" I bit my lower lip. God, it hurts so much. It feels like he's stabbing my heart a thousand times, getting chopped into pieves yet I'm here still trying my best to stand up to tell him that I'm strong, that i'm not giving up on him because i love him.

I want to punch myself for being stupud, i want to hurt myself for being like this. For liking Jungkook and giving all that I have even if he doesn't care.

"What why? STOP ASKING ME WHY! YOU LIKED ME THAT'S WHY YOU FORCED MY MOM TO MARRY YOU. DO YOU THINK YOU CAN BE LIKE HER?! YOU DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT" he shouted, punching the wall multiple times. I saw tears coming out from his eyes.

Jungkook I'm scared. This is the first time i saw you like that, You're angry and that's because of me.

"Jungkook, I didn't force them---"

"AND NOW YOU'RE PRETENDING?! WHEN I CHOSE HER MAYBE YOU GOT MAD AND KILLED HER" My eyes couldn't blink when he said that. Now, that's a real pain.

Jungkook what are you talking about? I can't understand you.

"What are you talking about Jungkook?" I held myself, feeling the slow, mad beat of my heart. I don't want to get mad at Jungkook.

"STOP LYING JIMIN. I KNEW EVERYTHING" He yelled as he threw another punch on the wall, letting all the pain inside him hurt him.

"YOU'RE SAYING THAT I KILLED YOUR WIFE?! DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE THAT? JUNGKOOK ALL I WANT HERE IS JUST TO SEE YOU HAPPY, I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING JUST FOR YOU JUNGKOOK AND THIS IS ALL THAT I'VE GOT!? I DID ALL MY BEST. ISN'T THAT ENOUGH?!" I shouted back as I let all the tears roll down to my cheeks. And finally got the chance to shout the pain that I keep inside my heart for years.

I'm so proud of myself, being brave to say that infront of Jungkook. Please Jungkook hear me out. I'm tired of explaining things repeatedly. Just please...

His facial expression changed
"Im so tired seeing your show Jimin, Stop pretending like you really care for me and all you want is my body" I laughed bitterly by his action and grimaced as the pain in my chest hurts even more.

Why can't he get it? I want to shout that I love him, I really do. Which part of it that he can't understand?

"WHAT THE FUCK?! THIS ISN'T A SHOW JUNGKOOK---OPEN YOUR EYES! I DON'T WANT TO HAVE YOUR FUCKING BODY... ALL I WANT IS YOUR..." I took a deep breath, hoping that the broken faucet inside my eyes will stop from making tears but that didn't help at all.

Why can't he see it? WHY!? JUNGKOOK WHY!? I'm so tired showing you my best. After all, this is what I've looked like in your eyes. Thirsty for your body?  I can't do nothing but to laugh about myself.

I kept pushing myself to someone that i know who can't love me and lying to myself that I'm still fine when i'm not. Jungkook keeps slapping me with reality but I'm still here, showing my fake smile and telling the world that it doesn't hurt me even a bit.

"All I want is your...love" I muttered while punching my chest to ease the endless pain in it.

Why does it hurt jungkook? After all the sacrifices that i made this all what i've got? You're blaming me for the death of your wife? Do you think I'm that kind of person to kill your wife? Jungkook I love you but I can't do such things like that just for myself.

Im not selfish where I will kill his wife just to steal his heart. I actually can be more happy to see the both of them living together than being his unwanted wife.

"YOU WANT ME TO LOVE YOU?!" Jungkook scoffed and let out a scary laugh then he pushed me hard against the bed and caged me between his arms.

"THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT?!" His eyes went dark. From that moment I knew that the Jungkook infront of me wasn't him.

My eyes widened when I felt his lips against mine, kissing me roughly. I tried to push him but he's just too strong for me.

No, Jungkook please don't do this
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My heart actually hurts while writing this, please forgive me. I love you guys!

What do you think will happen next?

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