My Life In Red

16

It was getting late so I decided to leave Frank's house and make my way back home. He woke up just long enough for me to get out of the bed and tell him I was leaving. On my long walk home I stopped by the drug store and picked something up that I had always dreaded the idea of. A pregnancy test. When I got home Matt wasn't there which meant he was either late or he was 'out on the town' already. I walked into the bathroom and pulled the test out of the bag with shaking hands. My mind was burning but all I could think was: what if I really am pregnant? How am I gonna tell Frank? Hell, how am I gonna tell Matt?

I peed on the three sticks and set them on the counter. I walked out of the bathroom to get a beer. When the timer went off the bottle in my hand was half empty. When I walked back i was scared shitless. I picked up the first one, negative. Then the second one, positive. Then the third one, positive. Shit. I sat on the toilet and chugged the rest of my beer. There was no way I was ready for this, how could I be so stupid. When I stood up, off the toilet lid it all hit me at once. I became very dizzy and nauseous. I only down as fast as I could and vomited in the bowl in front of me. As I sat there breathing I heard the front door open, followed by Matt calling my name. I threw up again right before Matt walked in to the bathroom.

"Oh my God Y/N are you alright?"

I shook my head no before saying it in the weakest voice. He knelt down on the floor for some reassurance​ but I hugged him tightly and cried into his chest. He held me like the world depended on it and rubbed small circles into my back.

"Everythings going to be alright. I don't know what's wrong but we'll fix it whatever it is."

I laughed a little and sat back on my knees. I wiped the stray tears away and just looked at his concerned and confused face.

"I wish it were that easy."

"Why? What's wrong?"

I grabbed one of the positive sticks off the counter and turned it a few times in my hands. My heart skipped a beat.

"Y/N?"

"Matt you can't be mad at me."

"Why would I be mad at you?"

"Because I've been lying to you since we met. Not about everything but at least about where I've been going everyday."

His face was strewn with confusion.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm pregnant."