These past few days have felt like hell not seeing my kids. Honesty I would do anything to be with them. I think it hurts even more that their first time there is with Nia.It took my these past few days to realize that she isnt here to hurt me or take my place. She loves Cori. the same way I did. I made so many excuses to not be with Cori when she came back and now it's done nothing but tear my family further apart.
Anyway. Me, Raven, and Tyler haven't been able to find anything on Knight and his father. We even asked Cori's mother and she said that she doesn't remember much about them. Just that Cori and Knight use to be really close.
"We have to wait," I say to the two of them as we sit in Ravens house.
"No, I don't want Cori going crazy when she hears about it," Raven spoke up.
"We don't have enough information. Cori is the only one who really knows,"
"She's right. I don't want her going crazy as much as the next person but we really don't know anything," Tyler said.
"Fine, she comes home tomorrow anyway." Raven sat on the couch and let out a frustrated sigh.
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I got home and Steph was packing. We finished packing majority of our stuff and she looked really excited.I know I should have Cori long off my mind by now but i cant. She was my life, years. I mean it's not her fault that something happened to her. She was loyal to me. Kept me in her mind and heart at all times and I cant keep thinking about how things would have went if Steph didnt come around, shit of if nothing happened to Cori.
"Steph, I need to talk to you," I said swallowing hard.
"Yes, baby," She said walking towards me.
"I cant do this?"
"Do what?" Her face twisted.
"I cant move, I cant move on with you,"
"What do you mean you cant, we already have. We got the place, we are damn near done packing this place up," Her voice cracked and I felt my eyes watering.
"You mean so much to me, and I love you I swear I do,"
"London stop. Please dont do this," her eyes watered and she looked away.
"I'm sorry. I - I I belong with my children, and Cori." She huffed in frustration and backed up. I could tell she was holding back more tears.
"I guess that's it, throw me out because Cori is back," She started to look more angry than mad. She walked out the front door and slammed it. I cried for while and called Raven. She rushed over and told me to stay at her place.
When I got in her car she didnt ask ask me any questions, she just drive in silence. I see where her and Cori are close. They are alike in so many ways. two gorgeous badasses who come off like they have no emotions.
We got to the house and she turned the fireplace on, grabbed me a blanket, and went in the kitchen to make me some hot coco.
I sat on the couch drinking it while she drank from her up. She turned on a move that was playing on stars and I stared at her waiting to ask me what was wrong. She finally caught me looking at her and she spoke.
"Do you need anything else?" she said sweet.
I paused. I should just come right out and say what happened.
"Me and Steph are done. I broke it off," Her face changed and she come over, embracing me in a hug. She still didn't say much. Just held me. I cried a little more on her until she pulled back.
"Why?" she finally asked.
"It's Cori. That's who I want. She is who I belong with," I could see her trying to hide her smile before she came back to hold me again.
It feels good to finally know what I want and be proud to say it.
Even if she doesnt feel the same way about me. I'm going to fight. Fight for her until I get her back, just like she did for me until I crushed her.
Evenetually me and Raven fell asleep in the couch. When I woke up it was around 3 in the morning. I went to put our cups in the sink. When I went in there Tyler scared the fuck out of me.
"Shit," I said loud.
"Shh, people are trying to sleep,"
"Why are you here?"
"Why are you here?" he asked back.
Fine I guess we both wont get answer.
"Can we talk?"
"Wassup," he said pulling a soda out of the fridge.
"Do you hate me or something?" he opened the soda and took a sip.
"Yeah," My heart sunk to my stomach. Damn that hurt more than i though it would.
"Can I know why?"
"You hurt her. All she ever did was love you. Everything she did for you. She treated you like a queen. Better than I've seen her treat any girl and you gave all that up because of three years. You hurt her. You two have kids and she comes back to find someone else in her spot. Have you ever thought of it the roles were reversed?" He paused and I put my head down. "Yeah I bet you haven't. well you would be hurt as fuck and Cori plays it off like it doesnt bother her but it does. She changed because of it. She was the happiest I had ever seen her and now she doesnt even know what she is doing. Sleeping up under girls she doesnt know trying to replace you. You know what, I dont hate you. I fucking hate what you did to her and I despise you for changing who she was,"
"Tyler," I heard ravens voice from behind me. A tear ran down my face and I pushed it away.
"No, He's right. I did change her and I did hurt her, but I'm going to try to fix it. I dont care if it's too late. Cori is something I shouldnt have let go of and now I'm paying because of it. I dont want it to be like this anymore. I want Cori back. Scratch that. I need Cori back and no one is going to stop me,"
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