rejection ➸ fillie

have you ever kissed a girl?

millie and i have gotten closer. the "date" with millie was only a couple days ago, but we have grown closer. same with sadie and noah. they're like best friends..kinda.

millie doesn't call me by my first name. she calls me "wolfhard" my last name. i mean, i don't really have a problem with it, i like how the words sound when she says it- which is odd.

"wolfhard!" millie called out, jogging up to me. "wolfhard?" i ask. "yeah. wolfhard." millie repeated.

"what ever happened to finn?" i chuckled. "finn is too...plain. wolfhard is better, sounds more badass."

and that's where that came from. it's kinda weird because that's what my history teacher calls me.

i still get nervous around millie, and i think i always will. it's just something that is just there. i could be dating her and i'd still be nervous whenever she looks at me. hell, i could be married to her and i'd still be nervous around her, but hey, i'm not getting ahead of myself now.

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"do you like him?" sadie asked. "who?" millie asked, taking a small sip of her smoothie.

sadie rolled her eyes, "come on, millie. you know who." she stated, she wasn't wrong either. "no?" millie says. "finn. do you like finn or not?"

millie breathed out, "no." she simply states, setting down her smoothie, "why?" sadie cleared her throat, "just curious." sadie lies.

"you know..noah said finn liked you." sadie told. millie shook her head, "no he didn't. you're lying." she guessed. "but i'm not." sadie said.

"sadie, i know, this is probably some set up. you say he likes me, noah tells him i like him, when we have never said anything of the sort."

–

"she's just so perfect, i don't understand." i told noah. "uh huh.." noah trailed off, i could hear him getting bored with me — but i just couldn't stop talking about her, it was like..some sort of habit. "she's so flawless too, like have you even seen her?"

"yup.." noah trailed off, again, i could hear the monotony in his voice. i should probably stop. "so.. have you found out what she thinks about me yet?" i ask.

"no, not yet," noah sat down the game controller, "sadie is coming over, she's probably already talked to millie, if not is talking to her as we speak. point is, we'll see; then, i'll tell you what you need to do."

"got it." i said.

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"she said she doesn't like him that way." sadie told noah. "you think she's lying?" noah asked, in which sadie shrugged to, "i don't know. i mean with millie it's kinda hard to tell, she doesn't really like to show feelings openly." she started, "that's why guys don't even try with her anymore. if they do they just stay friends and no one, like no one has ever stayed just to be friends with her. they wanted her to be 'theirs'." she added, "she's good at hiding her feelings."

"so..we may never find out?" noah asked. sadie shrugged, "depends..if finn just leaves her because he wants to be more than friends–" noah cut sadie off, "finn isn't like, okay? trust me, i know him, he's my best friend."