Gradually Accepting You

Revealed.

Anna's POV:

I woke up with a massive headache. It seemed like my day was off to a bad start. It became even far worse once the thought of Jeff came into mind.

I missed him. He was my everything. What I don't understand, is why he broke up with me so quickly, and why he broke up with me the way he did.

He called me. He told me that things weren't working out. He said to never contact him again. He even told me he didn't love me...

I just feel like everything has been a lie, everything we had. All the dates, the laughs, the kisses, the caring, the intimate moments we had...they were all fake. Why?

Was I not good enough? Was I not intimate enough? Did I not give him my best? Was I too clingy? Did I not trust him enough? Maybe it was all of the above.

I needed answers. I wanted us to work. He treated me so well and he gave me all I could ever want. If I wasn't doing the same for him, I want to fix it. I don't want to lose him. I fucking love him. Maybe he didn't mean it when he said he didn't love me.

He couldn't not love me, right? Because there's no way that from the beginning, he didn't feel how I felt. That night. So beautiful. I remember it so clearly.

1 year ago...

"Hey honey, how are you feeling?" my mom spoke.

"I'm fine, what happened?" I asked her.

"Well there's another project the government is doing. They were trying to test out a new sedative."

I shrugged it off. They always do those. It's just what our government does, nothing out of the ordinary. I asked her, "Can I go out for a walk?"

"You should rest, it's a really strong one and-"

"Mom, you know I always need air after these things," seemingly worried and unsure, she agreed. I got up and grabbed my phone.

I put on my safety mode. It monitors my heart rate and all that fancy medical shit in case something happens to me. Then it alerts any law enforcement if something is wrong.

For some reason, this sedative was actually strong. I was sure I was seeing things. It seemed as if whenever I looked at a girl, I imagined a guy. It wore off within seconds, and it repeatedly did that until it turned back into a girl.

A few minutes passed. Suddenly my body was losing control and I accidentally ran into this guy. I almost fell backwards, but he caught me.

"You don't look very well, darling. Sorry if this is weird, but you need to sit down, and it seems you can't walk properly," he picked me up and carried me bridal style.

I could feel his steps as he walked. He finally sat me down on a bench. He then said, "Wow, first day in this town and I'm already experiencing some weird stuff. I think I found my wife already," he let out a laugh, but snapped back into reality. I gave him a weak smile. "Oh shit, sorry, are you okay?"

"I think I will be, just the government is testing us with sedatives again."

"What on earth are you doing out here then?"

"I usually do this after the projects."

"Here, I'll just be a few feet away from you, I'll be right back," and with that, he left. I couldn't see where he was going. But he came back within a minute. This time he had a water bottle in his hand. He opened it and put it up against my lips. I drank what I could. I started to signal that I was done. He removed it from my mouth.

"Thanks, I probably should've just stayed inside. You should probably move on with your day, I'll be fine," I told him waving him off.

"No, it's okay. I don't mind. Actually um, I should take you home," I suddenly perked up.

"No I'm fine, see? Look I can even stand up," I tried to stand up, but fell back down. He grabbed onto my waist, helping me down.

"It seems like you don't want to go home, so I guess I'll just stay here with you until you do."

"No, leave, I'll be fine."

"Wow, I can tell you're a nice girl," he said sarcastically. I laughed.

"Ugh you're such a pain in the ass. If you want to stay here so badly, then that's your mistake, because I'm nothing exciting."

"Can I tell you something totally random?"

"Are you going to tell me I'm a Bella Thorne look alike, because some old guy told me that and I'm pretty sure a clown did too," after I said that, he let out a laughter. "That's not exactly what I was going to say. I was actually just going to tell you that you look beautiful," I felt red hot now. I'm positive I was blushing.

"Even with the fact that I look hella pale and like such a mess?"

"I don't think you're a mess, but even with your messy hair and pale face, I still think you're beautiful. And for some reason, don't quote me on this, but I think we might just turn out to be the best couple on the planet."

"I guess we'll have to find out. But first, you'd have to get to know me and take me out. I'll start. My name is Anna, what's yours?"

"Jeff."

-End of flashback-

I pick up my phone. I call Jeff about 12 times before he actually decides to pick up. "Oh my god, Jeff, please tell me what yesterday was all about," I told him.

"Anna, can you just deal with it? I don't want to be with you anymore. We already talked about this."

"Jeff, please. Can't you just come down one last time? Maybe we can talk things out. I at least want an explanation or to fix things," I could hear him sigh over the phone.

"Fine, you want your explanation? Why don't I just tell you over the phone, because I doubt you want me to say it in person. I doubt you'll want me there after I tell you anyway. But I need you to stop bothering me, so I'll fucking tell you."

"Why are you being such a dick right now?"

"Anna, our whole relationship has been a fucking lie, and you want me to be nice to you? I'm done being the nice guy."

"What do you mean our whole relationship has been a lie?"

"God, I can't believe I didn't figure this out when I found out about Selena."

"Figure what out?"

"I found out yesterday you were brainwashed. I can't be with someone who has had that kind of past."

"Stop lying Jeff, you can't be seri-"

"Oh yeah? Ask your mom, Anna." I began crying at that point.

"My mom?"

"Yeah, the one who made the mistake of giving birth to you."

"Jeff. I'm not-"

"Let's face it, Anna, you're gay. Even if you were brainwashed. Because no matter how hard people try to get rid of it, the feelings never left in the first place. Unfortunately, the hetero-enforcement hasn't realized that what they're doing, isn't working. So, there's your explanation. But, don't worry hun, you'll get your punishment."

And with that, he hung up the phone.