I often find myself awake in the middle of the night voicelessly screaming while my chest is hammering in pain because once again, you've come to haunt me in my dreams.
Before the sun arise I hear the whispers of your voice echoing in the corners of my room and it brings a sudden shiver of fear in my spine, it terrifies me that I might live my whole life hearing nothing but your voice.
There are even times when I keep my eyes close when I'm riding a bus on my way home because I don't want to get a glimpse of your favorite place. I'm scared that I'll see you with someone else but sometimes its hard to close my eyes too, because whenever I do all I can see is the image of your face smiling at me and then it'll be too painful for me to open my eyes and see that you're gone.
Some days I can't even look straight at people's eyes without remembering those hazel brown eyes of yours that used to look at my dark brown ones with love and adoration.
I even find myself suddenly taking a step back whenever someone tries to get near me because I'm afraid that when they get a closer look at me, they'd see your fingerprints all over my skin. I'm afraid that they'd see the scars you've left within me.
Sometimes I see you in a face of a stranger, sometimes I hear your voice around the corner, sometimes I still feel your touch lingering in my scarred skin. Sometimes I still feel your presence but oftentimes I feel your absence much more.
It's like you're still here but not quite. It's as if you're a ghost hunting me every single day, always making me shiver in fear and in pain.
I guess the scariest ghosts are not the ones who passed away. But the ones that still breathes and walks past us in the hallway.
