FOUR
Yes finally lunch break. Our fucking teacher just fucking dismissed late. My stomach ache too much. I've heard my stomach silently growling from within. I pace fastly towards the canteen and found lots of student crowded in the canteen. I unconsciously search the whole canteen, I found him looking at me, making an eye contact to me. Fuck! Why did I do that? I quickly looked away and went to the counter fast. As I push myself to a wave of people I heard them saying
"Nice look Seungkwan"
"Looking good today"
"Waaah is that Seungkwan? He's fucking handsome"
"Oh my god look at how he loss weight" and many more irritating comments. I ignored them all and finally got in front of the canteen.
"Oh Jesus, Seungkwan is that you my boy?" the auntie asked me. I nodded and smiled to her softly. She asked my order and I just pick a random sandwich and juice. Although I'm hungry, I don't feel eating at all, maybe its been my new habit now.
"You look handsome now, but I still love the old Seungkwan. I'm sure Vernon also loves the old and now Seungkwan." did he even love me in the first place? I nodded and bit goodbye to auntie. I walked fast to exit that place when someone grabs my arm, causing the food in my tray almost fall, but then that person catch my tray back. I looked up to that person and see...him. I recollect myself and remove his hands from me, it disgusts me a lot now that he was holding me, although how I wish to be in his arms again before. I glared at him and leave him alone in that spot. My pace becomes fast as if I'm being run by a dog. I went upstairs, to the rooftop to be exact.
Nobody went here so maybe I can probably kinda escaped from that. I sigh heavily and sit down, proceed to my little lunch when I heard someone singing. I startled and stand up quietly to look at the corner. I saw somewhat familiar hair.
"Wonwoo hyung?"
"Seungkwan? What are you doing here?"
"Uhm, I was about to ask you that."
"I always hang out here. How about you?" I sit next to him and place my tray down before I answer.
"To maybe... forget something" I replied lifelessly.
"Well then, good choice. You can forget everything when you're here, especially forget that the bell rings." he said. I laugh at his slight pun.
"May I ask why?" then he asked seriously. He's really moody–like he's happy for now and get serious in just 0.0001 seconds. I was brought back when I saw fingers snapping in front of me.
"I'm sorry hyung." I said.
"Hey I'm the only one who's allowed to space out okay?" he laughed.
"I'm thinking of you though." I admitted. I see a glint of happiness in his eyes although he's wearing that infamous famous poker face.
"Hmm... Is that so" he said smiling. Wait
smiling?
"Why? What's wrong?" he asked cautiously.
"Oh nothing. Its just because you smile at me. I never saw you smile at me like that." I said. He smile to me and carefully pat my head.
"You should smile more hyung." I added.
"Well, if that's what you said, I will do it." he replied. Its kinda cool to hang out with Wonwoo hyung sometimes. I saw him before like an introvert thats why I never approached him even in the dorm, just saying few words briefly.
We talk and talk about everything. Just casual stuffs. I even have the courage to reveal my problems to him, specifically HIM. We were still talking to each other when Wonwoo hyung realized its already sunset.
